All Chapters of The Heartbreaker (Completed): Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

Unfortunately, only a short time later, I notice that morning sex is not going to work because we probably let it rip a little too much during the night. Even Jake's fingers penetrating me cause an uncomfortable burning sensation. The guilty conscience can be seen on his face as soon as I tell him this, but I take it away from him immediately by assuring him that I would repeat this night without hesitation. God, this crazy night! And that's true. I'm so incredibly happy that I would love to share it with the whole world. But that's exactly the next problem, isn't it? Jake is my secret and I am his. I have to lie to my friends to be with him and that just feels more and more wrong. I don't want to hide what we have, but how can we ... teach Claire about our relationship and tell her what we've been doing behind her back for a long time?  I think about that a lot later when I return home in the early afternoon. I'm not getting any closer to a solution,

I did it. There is no turning back, no possibility of doing anything differently. My thesis is finished and must now be read, checked and assessed. I can only hope and pray that I will convince with the content, because even after the most infinite time of improvement I was not satisfied, so I finally gave it up and gave it up. Someone sits down next to me, and before I even look, I know it's Jake. Its utterly unmistakable scent wafts around me and my body reacts instinctively to its proximity. "So how are you feeling?" He asks, examining my face. I wrote him a message earlier and told him what I was going to do.“Don't know exactly. I could go nuts at any moment, ”I confess.He smiles and reaches for my hand, and his touch only upsets me. But in a very positive way. I feel the connection between us, not just physically, and I wish, like so often lately, that I didn't have to hide what I feel.Here on the university campus w

Since Jake played your boyfriend a while ago to make Sebastian jealous, you could return the favor soon.""Claire, let it go," Jake says, and I look back and forth between the two of them, confused."I'm telling you this is a good idea," Claire replies, turning back to me. "Actually I wanted to go back home with Jake, visit my parents and support him, but now David has invited me to visit his parents during that time and make up for the visit at my home," she continues. “And I thought if I can't ride with Jake to stand by him, you could pretend to be his girlfriend for a few days. Then his parents will see that he has not only built something professionally here and will perhaps finally accept that he has chosen this path. " The suggestion made my heart beat faster again immediately, but I warn myself to react as I would have if nothing happened between Jake and me. "I don't know ... I mean, you will surely notice if we play something for them," I po

The corners of my mouth should be slowly sore, as often as I smile to myself that day. I guess that's because I'm spending it with Jake. Just the two of us, far from the people who know us and shouldn't know that something is going on between us. Already in the morning I slipped away with an excuse and drove to him. We had breakfast together, packed a large picnic basket full of goodies and then we drove off to his lake. After a few creative jumps into the water, lots of laughter and fun, we finally lay down on the blanket we had brought with us and let the sun dry us off.Jake's fingers circle over my back, again and again he presses his lips on my shoulder and leaves a tingling warmth there. In some way, our bodies are always touching , and I wish so much that it could be, if we didn't hide from our friends. I want to show everyone that he belongs to me. I constantly make up my mind to talk to Jake about whether we don't want to make it official, but pinch at the last momen

I nod. “But at least now I know it wasn't my fault. As stupid as it sounds, I've never been able to shake off these thoughts completely and have always dragged him around with me. "Jake frowns and thinks for a moment. "Why did he suddenly want to tell you the reason?""Well, because ..." I wriggle inside and finally shrug my shoulders. "He says he still loves me and was hoping for a second chance."Now Jake lets his hand drop all the way, and I panic that this revelation could change something between us. I quickly move closer to him and put my hands on his strong forearm. "He won't get a second chance," I say very seriously, so that there can be no doubt about him. “I'm over Sebastian. Absolutely. I always put it on a pedestal and never saw what it really is. I know that now, and even if the separation threw me completely off track at the beginning, in retrospect I'm somehow ... happy and grateful that it happened. " Because it allowed

Damn. Why did I say that now? I am probably not fully awake yet and therefore have no control over my mouth.“She's waiting for us there. Better hurry up before she gets impatient. " I grab his earlobe and pull on it before gently biting his chin. "You're an idiot."Jake laughs and rolls off the couch. Then he pulls me up by the hands and lifts me onto his hips. "I'll kidnap you now, whether you want it or not," he says and carries me over to my room. “Take what you need with you. And hurry up. "After he has let me down, I go to my bed and grab the rucksack that I had with me that morning and which still contains some clothes. When I turn back to Jake, I stop moving. He's looking at me in a way that causes the silly butterflies in my stomach to be caught in a real tornado. Honestly, maybe I'll go into flames at any moment, his gaze burns mine so damn hot. Who was Katie again? Or Jill? Or any other woman on this planet.

“Not quite yet, but I'm well on my way there. But what I actually want to say is: You should never be ashamed that you know exactly what you want and that you are pursuing your goals. With that you have something ahead of countless people. And if your parents can't accept that, then that's their problem and not yours. Parents should protect their children, always be there for them and love them unconditionally. And they shouldn't make all of this dependent on whether the children turn out the way they want it to. "He nods slowly and exhales audibly . “I know all that, Evy. I just wish they would finally get it too. "  We are mutually silent for the next few minutes until Jake asks me a question that I didn't expect at that moment: "Do you really not miss your ex anymore?"I take my time with the answer by going deep inside myself and finding out whether I am still missing Sebastian in any way. "No," I finally reply. How could I miss anoth

It doesn't," he replies.My smile is getting bigger. "No, it doesn't." I slide up his torso and kiss his lips. "And neither do you.""You can bite me anytime and anywhere, Evy." There is a deep tenderness in his gaze that makes my heart swell.I kiss him for a long time and without any haste, even if my need for him never seems to subside. It pulsates in me like an independent, powerful being, always ready to take what it desires. "Jake ..." I straighten up a little and fix the birthmark on his collarbone. I have a question in my head and I just can't get rid of it. Not even from my desire. “Do you think your parents might ... like me? I mean, not that it matters in any way, because we're officially just pretending I'm your girlfriend, but ... how much aversion do I have to expect? "His fingers gently lift my chin so that I look back at him. "You will mainly express your displeasure with me, don't worry," he explains, and the minimally

"And here's Jake a little shit," says Mary. She stands in a passage and points to another picture. "You'd like to see that too, Evy." Curiously, I approach hers and look at the photo. "Oh, how cute," I then tell Jake, with a twinkle in my eyes, which he understands right away: I'll tease him with that at least a few more times in the future. “Jacob?” Comes the voice from next to us, and I almost flinch again. A slim woman appears in the passage and looks back and forth between us, lingering on me for a moment and then looking at Jake. I know right away that it's his mother. They have the same eye color, a mix of brown and green, and long, dark eyelashes that tightly frame their eyes. "There you are at last." She looks relieved and uncertain at the same time as she folds her hands in front of her stomach.I swallow my discomfort, along with the doubts that invade me, and take a step toward her. "Hello, Mrs. McAdams," I greet her kindly.&nb

When we finally return to his parents' house, the ease that had built up during our excursion evaporates almost immediately. And Jake's tension also returns, which I can see very clearly in his stoic demeanor and the closed expression that transforms his beautiful face into a rigid mask. I don't like it when Jake is like this because it makes him seem like a stranger to me.We are greeted in the hall by his mother, who is very good at hiding her displeasure with our disappearance when she senses it. However, there is sadness in her eyes the moment she looks at her son, and while she tries to speak normally to us, her voice also sounds tense and hesitant, as if she is weighing each word first before uttering it. “It would be nice if you could join us. We have been waiting for you to eat, ”she tells us.“Great,” Jake replies as he slips off his shoes. "Then I can hear something from Dad right away.""Jake ..." The sadness is fo