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I call Jake's cell phone several times and leave messages on his voicemail before I finally go downstairs to see if his car is still in the driveway.He does not. So Jake drove away ... and left me here. Of course I understand that he was upset after his father said something like that to him - but why is he pushing me away now? Why does he leave me alone with the people who have hurt him so much?"Evy." Mary appears behind me and stops next to me. I can feel her gaze on my cheek like he's burning himself into it. "Has he gone?""Yes," I reply flatly. I still can't believe Jake actually left me alone.“He'll be back in a couple of hours. He used to go to Claire's house when he argued with our dad. He was back the next day at the latest. "I feel a sore lump forming in my throat and I swallow hard."Dad loves him, you know?" She goes on, sighing audibly. “But he's hurt in his pride and he's so damn stubborn. The company that our g

When headlights appear in the distance and head towards the house, I can barely stand the pain inside. My eyes burn like crazy because I suppress the tears with all my might, and I can barely breathe because my throat is so tight.Jake's car stops at the same place it did when we got here this afternoon. He gets out and comes up to me, and it's only with the last of my strength that I manage to suppress a sob."Hey." He sits down next to me and looks at me.Meanwhile he is so familiar to me that I would probably recognize him blindly and everywhere ... but actually I don't know him at all, do I? Little did I know his heart belonged to Claire. I thought he would give it to me one day."What's going on?" He asks, frowning. I swallow hard and hope my voice will still obey me. "That ... is too much for me," I say in a whisper. "Sorry, I thought I could pull this off, but ... it won't work." I shrug helplessly. Jake nods slowly and br

It is quiet in the apartment when I enter it a day later. Tired and emotionally drained, I lie in bed and pull the covers over my head. My tears just don't want to end, even though I know I have to pull myself together if I don't want my girlfriends to know what happened. Damn it, I can't mutate back into the same wreck that Sebastian made me a few months ago! Jake and I weren't even really together. We just messed around and then I got lost in something. That went stupid, but life goes on. I'm getting over it, and this intense pain that has hit my whole body is completely exaggerated. That howling too. God, I'm such a drama queen!But what the fuck am I supposed to do about it? I feel like I can't breathe when I understand that Jake doesn't belong to me. I've never felt like this at the end.I flinch when I hear the key and then the apartment door. I hold my breath tense until the door to my room is slowly opened."Evy?"It's just Lu. Thank

When I'm not crying secretly under the covers, I hide as inconspicuously as possible from Claire's company. After I somehow managed to report on the visit to Jake's parents - although of course I justified my hasty departure differently than that a world had collapsed for me - I only had a makeshift conversation with Claire and my absence in justified our common rooms with the fact that I still have a few things to do at the university for the last week. Fortunately, she's really too busy enjoying her fresh love to worry more about my behavior. I can only hope Jake's story is the same as mine.He tried several more times to talk me into a conversation. He wrote to me again and again and finally even called me. I sent a message to him that I didn't want to see him. In the end, he probably accepted it and has not sought contact with me for a few days. It hurts so much and I keep catching myself looking up his name on my contact list - but I don't call him. I can not. Hearing hi

She looks at me unconvinced. "For sure?""Yes. I'm ... on my period and I'm pretty close to the water right now anyway. Go enjoy the evening, I'm fine. Maybe I'll come to you later if I'm not too tired. "Lu stands up and gives me one last look before she leaves my room."If you need us, just let me know, will you?" Claire says at the door. And after I nodded, she finally leaves me alone.I wipe my eyes with both hands and take a deep breath. It can not go on like this. I have to pull my head out of the sand and get my life back on track. I've wallowed in my pain and grief long enough, lied and cheated enough. At some point I have to tell Claire the truth, finish this chapter, and just look ahead.But before I can tackle these ambitious goals, I give in to the enormous longing in me again and sneak into the hallway to peer into the living room without being seen. I know that this decision is stupid and wrong and that it only cuts myself into my own

I open my mouth and close it again, look at Jake, who is rubbing his jaw, and take a startled breath when I notice the blood in the corner of his mouth."Jake!" Claire exclaims at the same moment and rushes over to him. I swallow hard when she touches his cheek so familiarly and makes sure he's okay. I quickly avert my gaze and almost bump into Lu, who is standing next to me."There's a lot of action here," she remarks and suggests a smile. "What happened? Did the two idiots fight for your favor? Who won? Tell me Jake kicked Sebastian a lot. "I rub my forehead, behind which there is an unbearable throbbing, and only wish to get away from here. Without answering, I walk past Lu and pray fervently not to fall over again. "Evy." Jake followed me and cut me off by standing in front of me. “Talk to me at last,” he says, looking very determined. "Not here," I reply in a lowered voice. Everyone is probably watching us

Slowly I sink onto an old bench nearby and take a deep breath as I review the events of the past few hours and finally end up at Sebastian's opening that Jake fucked Jill . It was really hard to hear, and I'm damn glad it wasn't. Perhaps a small part of me even feels something like satisfaction because Sebastian was simply dumped by the woman he left me for. For someone else. For Jake, who fooled her to get revenge on Sebastian for me. Granted, objectively, it's not nice to be kidding a woman like that, but this little part of me thinks Jill deserves it too. Definitely. You can't walk through life, trample over others and expect never to get your receipt back. She got the receipt and I don't feel sorry for her.    In the next moment I remember the last words I said to Jake. That was just bad and I deeply regret it."I'm an incredibly bad person," I mutter to myself, pulling my legs up to rest my forehead on my knees. I'm so sorry for hurting him like th

"Well, there you see it, Evy," says Lu again and says what goes through my head. "And all the heartache and heartache could have been prevented if you'd opened your mouth." And how right she is ...I sigh heavily and get up to go to Claire. "I'm so sorry," I say softly, and wait to see if she'll give up her defensive stance so I can hug her. When it does, I squeeze it very hard once. “I'm sorry I started something with your best friend behind your back. And I'm sorry that I was so mad at you ... I didn't mean to, but I automatically blamed you for not being able to be with him. That was not fair." As soon as I let go of her, Claire looks at me. "How do you feel about Jake, Evy?"I take a deep breath and press my lips together briefly. "I'm really, really, really terribly in love with him," I confess in the next moment. "At first, I just wanted to distract myself a little and restore my self-esteem, but I lost my heart to Jake in no time.

The journey seems forever to me. Much longer than my escape two weeks ago. Probably because at the time I was numb inside and now I can hardly wait to finally reach our goal.We change several times, spend the night in a small hotel and definitely not go back by train or bus. But even if sitting for a long time is quite exhausting for us, we enjoy this trip, which bonds the three of us a little more together, and promise each other to do something together more often in the future. Because we've been neglecting that lately. Mainly because of me and the secrecy or the heartache, but Claire had also made herself very rare because of course she is freshly in love and wants to spend a lot of time with David. It would just be sad if our friendship breaks because we no longer care for it enough.  "Our cooking evening will definitely be reintroduced," says Claire, pointing to me. “And since you and Jake don't have to hide anymore, we can go out together in th

Of course Claire is right about everything she says, but I can no longer watch her beat Anne down. Not when Jake's mom clearly shows how much she regrets her behavior. She loves her son, of course, but she's caught between two stools. And Claire's finger pointing only makes her situation more unbearable.This will probably also be clear to Claire, because in the next moment she sits down on Anne's other side and covers her hands. "Show Jake that you're proud of him," she says, this time in a gentler tone. “Show him that he did absolutely nothing wrong. Whether your husband agrees or not, you are his mother. Everyone needs their mother, and every mother must not just watch her child suffer. Get his trust back. "I swallow hard when the picture of my mom pops into my mind's eye. It's been a good four years since I last saw her. And I absolutely do not know what happened in her life at that time. Again and again I wonder if she's okay ... if she's even still alive.