All Chapters of The Heartbreaker (Completed): Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

The air is damp and stuffy at the same time as we make our way through the small groups of people. I fall back a little and grab Jake's hand as he looks around and offers it to me.It feels strange holding hands with someone other than Sebastian. And surprisingly not bad. Jake's hand is large and completely encompassing mine. I no longer feel lost in this crowd of people laughing and chatting.We manage to get to the stretch of sand and settle down there in an open area."I'll get us a drink." Jake has to lean towards my ear so I can hear him. His warm breath hits my skin and makes it tingle.While he dares to venture into the hustle and bustle again, I sit and look around. If Sebastian is really here today, it will be difficult to locate him among all the others present. The nervousness in my stomach is forming a heavy lump.What am I doing here? , I keep asking myself, and exhale with relief when Jake finally returns and at least for the moment d

Now I know," I whisper to myself. "Now I know he's got another one." "Evy -""I'm such an idiot," I interrupt him and laugh briefly. "While I'm wondering how to get him back, he's swapping me for a badly colored redhead." I get up quickly and squeeze through the crowds to one of the bars, where I order another trendy drink . Jake appears by my side and I can hardly bear the look he gives me. I don't want pity! I want him to drink with me and scold Sebastian. Or kiss me and make Sebastian forget. Just not this pity ..."Are you going to get drunk now?" He finally asks."Just until I've gathered enough courage to go over to him and tell him what I think of him in the face." So much pain has compressed inside me that I absolutely have to get rid of some of it because otherwise I will choke on it. "Evy." When Jake's fingers hit my chin gently, it's too much for me. Was overcome by the urge anything to do, just do n

You ..." I take a deep breath and struggle to say the next few words. “She said he should have endured my boring company for years and no longer needed it. If I hadn't been so boring - "“Oh no, Evy,” Jake interrupts. “Shit, this guy's just an asshole and his new wife probably a bitch. Don't let anybody talk you into shit. ""But something must have bothered him about me, otherwise he wouldn't have exchanged me for her!" I counter and immediately hate myself for actually putting on this shoe. “I don't know what bothered him. Maybe he's just a wanker. But that's no longer your problem, is it? "I don't answer, just turn to the side and wrap my arms around me. I shouldn't do it. Hell, I know it's stupid, but I just can't erase that thought.Am I boring? Did Sebastian leave me and look for someone else because he found me boring? Why? We didn't go on adventures every day, that's true, but I went along with whatever

Of course, I'm not as lucky as I'm hoping for. Claire and Lu are sitting in the living room watching a game show, and my attempt to sneak quietly into my room without being spotted by them fails miserably. Despite the TV, which is turned on quite loud, I guess I'm not quiet enough."Evy, are you back yet?" Claire calls into the hallway and then asks Lu if she just imagined she heard the door.I sigh in resignation and take off my shoes before I face the inevitable and go to my friends in the living room."It didn't go well," I tell them right away and plop down on the couch with Claire. Ignoring your compassionate look, I tell you about the encounter with Sebastian and his newcomers. I don't leave out any unsightly details. The tears that flow automatically as soon as I think back on them, I just let them run and repeatedly wipe them away with the sleeve of my favorite blouse.Claire hugs me as soon as I'm done, and Lu gives Sebastian a few words that go

The next morning I get up quite late because I found it very difficult to get to sleep at night. My head aches from all the weeping and brooding, and the sunlight that shines through the window intensifies the dull throbbing behind my forehead.I struggle to get out of bed and into the shower before going to the kitchen, from which I can hear voices and the clatter of dishes. Also a voice that I didn't necessarily expect. Jake is sitting across from Lu at our cobbled-together breakfast bar. When I see him, my stomach skips a little. Crap this is not good. I suppress this feeling as well as possible and say hello to everyone before I sit next to Lu. “So what are your plans now? Are we going to get rid of Sebastian's new one? ”She asks me immediately."Twenty cats sound pretty good right now," I reply, shrugging my shoulders. "Suitable for my boring company.""Oh no!" She groans demonstratively loud and long. “Did the bi

She shrugs and smiles confidently. “One should never give up hope. At some point your parents have to accept your decisions. "I'd like to know more about why Jake doesn't want to go home. Probably what Claire mentioned last has a lot to do with his attitude that everyone should live as they like. What I can filter out is that his parents probably didn't agree with his decisions. And still are not.Jake catches my gaze, and since I am uncomfortable that he caught me staring, I quickly look back into my bowl. It's none of my business what problems Jake has with his parents. I'm a little sorry that he doesn't seem to be supported in what he's doing, but I don't have to interfere. At the moment I have enough worries of my own.   Surprisingly, I manage to take my mind off my grief over the next few days by finishing my graduation thesis and playing the slave for the boss and the othe

I hardly think so." I can't say goodbye or give him a nice word on the way. Instead, I just turn away and leave. And Sebastian lets me go, with which he finally closes the last chapter of our time together.  "You're just way too nice for this world," Lu tells me later when I'm sitting in the kitchen making myself a sandwich. I told her about Sebastian and his apology as soon as I got home and found her in the kitchen. Because there was so much anger and frustration in my stomach that I needed to get rid of some of it.“He's got a clear conscience now, and you're struggling with self-doubt. What does she have that I don't have? Right?"  "I can't turn it off," I admit meekly. “I really thought Sebastian was the man I'm getting old with. But he traded me ... just like that. "“Because he's a selfish ass. In a few months he'll trade this Joy too, because he wants to

The audience roars and whistles, and I silently pray that I'm just dreaming this and waking up any minute. Unfortunately that doesn't happen, so I stand there smiling bravely until the winner is chosen. Not me, which I already knew, but a screeching colleague who shows nothing under her T-shirt but her stiff nipples.I quickly disappear from the stage and suppress a groan when I spot Clare in the crowd. She comes up to me laughing. "Evy, what are you doing there?" She exclaims enthusiastically. "Embarrass myself to the bone," I reply meekly and cover my face with my hands when Jake appears behind her. Now I really really want to disappear into the ground!"How did you come up with it?" My friend continues, grabbing my wrists to pull my hands down. Her eyes twinkle with amusement."Obviously I've lost my mind." I sigh heavily and look back at the stage, where a few other girls are now standing and wanting to win the title too. “Roy ... Well, th

Jake looks me over and it's really hard not to look away in shame. Seriously, who taught him, so to watch? It feels like he can see right into me. "Was that the guy you pulled the show off earlier?" He asks suddenly.  And now I look down. “Uh, yes. I know that was pretty stupid, but I didn't think about it much, I just did it. " “Did you want to prove something to him or to yourself? Or your ex? "I look up again and scrape my lower lip with my teeth. Then I shrug one shoulder. "Everyone?""What his new friend said hit you really hard." He frowns slightly, obviously thinking before adding: "Why are you taking that to heart?"“I don't know, maybe because it could be true? I mean, I'm not exactly the most exciting person - and that's not fishing for compliments, ”I add right afterwards. "You wouldn't even want to lay me down." Damn it, the filter on my mouth is broken again! I sigh and shake my he

You really aren't a nice guy," I inform him with glowing cheeks. I cannot ignore the violent effect the touch of his skin has on me. I swear I can almost feel myself getting burned on him. And while I instinctively know he's dangerous, I don't back down. On the contrary. I would like to get closer to him."What's this going to do here?" Claire's confused voice breaks the spell and brings me back down to earth in a flash.I take a step back and lower my arms. My heart beats violently in my ears .  "Evy really wanted me to do a private strip," Jake says with a wink. "And I was bitterly disappointed," I reply and hear for myself how thick my voice sounds.Claire looks back and forth between us and shakes her head before turning to me: “Evy, I have something to tell you. I ... just saw Sebastian and his new girlfriend. Not far from us. " All of a sudden, any joy and excitement that I just felt fizzled out. Not even a