STRANGE THING

Didn't matter whatever the date was everything was always the same. The same me, the same problems, the same day and the same broken heart which would never recover maybe.

I was laying on my bed but I closed my eyes tightly however I could not sleep well yesterday. I was just thinking about incident of yesterday. The incident was playing in my mind constantly like a movie.

'How I wish I could forget my pain, how I wish I could forget yesterday incident. If I can also be happy and free like other teenager then maybe my story will be different from now. Is it my fault? or is it a faul of situation? or is it a fault of my time? Will my life change? or I have to just give up?'

My train of thought was interrupted by my Mom's yelling.

data-p-id=92d3759153853b077a06a9843d1ec07d,"Bella wake up! You are gonna be late for the school" mom shouted from downstairs.

data-p-id=5524bdea42ec6183aa2d5ea828c4f361,'I don't want to wake up; I want everything to end up. Tears started to fall from the eyes. I can't tolerate the pain anymore. I have to face my bullies again which I don’t want to,’

data-p-id=b65c45c511d50dc15e11f289c7aa68f1,”Bella! fast" mom shouted.

data-p-id=3a9a2747f31e4637f95d9727c65d4396,"Yeah coming mom" I ran as fast as I could.

Mom was serving me the breakfast on the huge table.

I sat down silently to have my breakfast.                                                             

“Do you have any test today?”

“No today don’t have any test.” I answered her while biting my sandwich.

She just hummed in response without paying much attention to me.

She was cleaning the dishes and I finished my breakfast quickly as I was already getting late.

“Mom I am done.”

“Good now go to school and be a good student okay?” She dried her wet hands on a towel.

data-p-id=c6714e4d2d9ea0d0f6b3d2d0f7d13bfb,"Bye mom" I plastered a fake smile.

Mom kissed me on my forehead.

I left the house while my heart was drenching in pain. I was walking at a very pace.

data-p-id=7cf3cdcf050806e1fb2fa2d5cbfca2ca,While walking on the road I thought about yesterday:

Flashback~

data-p-id=620a05ada68cf9856e2ae83b4e789367,I woke up because of some faint sound from my parent's room.

data-p-id=6fe55c9054dd3246ab2615333c64c312,I walked to the door, hide behind the door, and eavesdropped. I knew that it was not the best thing which I could do but I could not help myself from eavesdropping. I heard Mom and Dad was yelling at each other constantly for some reason.

data-p-id=142f80ad23fac048e7183da261f44801,Mom: What did you think I don't understand anything? I am trying my best and you are just shouting that you are the one who is working hard for us.

data-p-id=8e246fdfa0be39cb729ffb867f474967,Dad: I am working whole day and night for you all and at the end of the day you are accusing me of cheating!

data-p-id=1ff62b8cd1a5e5dca8a215d24f801df6,Mom: Then tell me why you were with her in an expensive restaurant?

data-p-id=beb6120111e08b0e37d7a6c83da0ec37,Dad: She is just my client, why don't you understand?

data-p-id=1f94867b359dd3e2f6824eefef2f5d49,Mom: Oh wow spending money over her and here we are suffering from financial problems. Due to you, I have to work two part-time jobs. Do you have idea how hard it is to be for me?

data-p-id=9f803620654f25da8d58bdb82858b7f1,Mom started to sob.

data-p-id=c96d3478256676cab2d66f62e3a2e9bb,Dad: So you are telling me that I am the cause of your pain?

data-p-id=acd14d0fb44de0cd05914d90fc1c73f1,Mom shouted in anger, "Yes you are! After marrying you my life has become hell, I can't even afford good things for my one and only daughter and you are spending all the money over that woman. Why did you even marry me when you are gonna be like this? When you are gonna act like a jerk!"

data-p-id=7faa801c3cc11c0a39f923e06c2252d3,Dad shouted in a broken voice "Yes I am the one who causes the misery in everyone's life. So what should I do? Should I just leave my work and sit in home? How many time do I have to say she was the wife of my client if I could make her agree with my deal then you don’t have to work?"

data-p-id=d3d4b75a905557a189e7ede858f8216e,Mom cried and stated, "Let's end this relationship our marriage here, I want a divorce, I don’t want to hear anything from you I just want divorce."

data-p-id=d26acb947f01dc7ffb50d83b12f2b418,Dad said, "You are selfish, you just think about yourself, you can't take my daughter away from me. And have you thought about Bella?"

data-p-id=b45de0cf667385a51d423814572211cd,"Yes, I am selfish and she will be happier if we will separate." Mom said while opening the door.

data-p-id=ba623eafd9cd01362484b1c22e34f676,I ran away from there with tears forming in my eyes.

data-p-id=6615e0053b6cc76fbd758d23208f502c,I prayed, "God please don't do this with me I can't take this anymore."

data-p-id=8a2c235156c7467ac2c4b7887b674494,I closed my eyes tightly.

data-p-id=0e44f7b238002963a019985214229e11,My mom entered in my room and whispered while running her hand through my hair" I love you my Bell, you will never have to suffer for me, you will get everything in your life." she kissed my forehead softly and left.

data-p-id=207b9f2885ca67d00117635cbb10a7a1,After 5 minutes later~

data-p-id=888e675d9974837ac304dc4ea165f2cd,Dad enters and sat beside me and for the first time, a tear fell from his eyes " I love you my sweetie, you never have to worry about anything my princess, I will work harder to give you everything." he also kissed softly on my forehead and left the room.

data-p-id=5f69021721fec83a5fdbdf817e1b63c4,’ why I am so selfish I always think about myself, I hate it, I can't tolerate this pain, my parents give me everything but why I am so alone, I wanted to end everything, why God why are you not helping me I hate you.’

data-p-id=ba54a6a3622e3f177ebe8fc53562ff12,End of Flashback~

data-p-id=14410682c0b443b72dd67cad53bc1d41,Time passes and school dismissed. I was not able to think straight anymore. I changed my route. I chose the road opposite to my house.

data-p-id=b8683c0ebe276197367d922af46c74de,I was standing in front of a river over railings, ready to give up everything. Ready to finish everything.

data-p-id=3f207392132a2bfe07c08056354da5cd,’Sorry Mom and Dad, I love you.’

data-p-id=ca49f6155967166af5e1c13a271608ed,Closed my eyes and left my hands from the railings but in the meanwhile something strange happened, I felt like I was flying ' Am I dead?' I thought.

data-p-id=506fa1838c4bddabbf33827907326faa,Is everything gonna change for Bella or everything is over?

data-p-id=2eb591d142228595157b06d7d5006e72,Author's note:

data-p-id=384c0727e1c00e04d3c720b1ad476b75,Guys never give up! nobody knows what brings you tomorrow. If you are going through a hard time then always remember you are very near to your good time.

data-p-id=9b1def957c269eab2315abaedata-p-id=aed3b0509d7314f7767f114fcbdbfd5d,love you guys.

data-p-id=ccaa59914e3afe24575359124ae69541,to be continued~