SORRY

data-p-id=440773e3cfade6acce14e0275db2d09b,"What the hell is wrong with you, you are disgusting." a girl shouted.

data-p-id=a2ffb35df2280b47a351f09546b526ff,"I-I am really s-sorry I didn't m-mean it, I was j-just..." I said at a very low tone.

data-p-id=cde71b0b4a60707a1966e6a1688452ca,"Ugh never mind you fool." the girl shouted and left her while Bella was cleaning the mess.

data-p-id=c04d0b8bd590234e905180f1041c190e,Bell rang~

data-p-id=ee363c470f7c8599d2d25434f16493b9,"So students here is your result of last week's test, I am gonna call your names here, come here one by one," Mrs. Brown informed the students.

data-p-id=1f378a8c6cf5cd17992e1ca693ea6f5b,She started to call out the names one by one and at last, she asked me to stand up.

data-p-id=62a17c20cb4f54aa7ded00fffcbbad4e," so, our precious Bella, would you please try to give me an explanation about your excellent grade, you have got a big fat F, only 4 out of 100, students please clap for her for her achievement." she handed me the sheet.

data-p-id=aca8a3f77f93375ffb4a490b17ef6b09,I just stood there still without showing any emotion.

data-p-id=77b7af8790cc6a3cfa139b41fd906b9e,Everybody was laughing and teasing me.

data-p-id=bf8d8d8b98c351454a055f2942e95c82,"Will you please answer me?" Mrs. Brown shouted sarcastically.

data-p-id=1b94f061e5e49cc2c36f97c63093ff14,"I-I a-am so-sorry miss," I asked for forgiveness.

data-p-id=46919a0ac294b786ae69e1d8f216c311,"let's meet your parents on the meeting day of this month."

data-p-id=8f1f440117ba9c15bef9a56fd68a02c2,I just nodded my head silently.

data-p-id=e935c85783e9fe5c1b9ec987470b718b,Bell rang~

data-p-id=cac7e739d81b03763d57a0d40e5ee0b3,"Class dismiss."Mrs. Brown left the classroom.

data-p-id=46e247ebbef728fc645af1cc07c977ff,"You will never change, you a piece of shit." a group of girls passed by me giggling.

data-p-id=28563cd014c7758644607fba7febad4c,At home~

data-p-id=3bd03243ffb56742b147da9c462fca21,"I am back," I said while removing my shoes.

data-p-id=32e876425713fca511ca33957d3c96ac,"How was your result Bella." mom asked me.

data-p-id=4ede6122c7e3e1b31c8537f716ecf6c7,I handed her the result.

data-p-id=e0278f6fa263e1078c42ea4b772e9f3d,"What the hell is wrong with you Bella, we have given you everything but you just can't concentrate in your studies." my mom scolded me.

data-p-id=59f197a5a7aa1db03a772d83e4f89f66,"I am sorry mom." I apologies

data-p-id=1929179434d9d7529b1e6553c060dfee,“A sorry will not help you, you are just becoming worse day by day..." mom gave me a lecture for half an hour.

data-p-id=2dac3ff7e8332702f7b7c3a021e74dbb,"I am sorry mom I know this is my mistake mom." I took my bag and left for my room.

data-p-id=6e9ad10027d28480528497b139b35c0f,I changed my dress and stood in front of the mirror and the whole day's flashback started to run in my mind.

data-p-id=66b37a950f43322e88f32800de7b962b,A tear left my eyes and again apologies " I am sorry, I am sorry, I know I am selfish, I am sorry."

data-p-id=3ffc23a657eecddb22e413329c01b6be,At dinner~

data-p-id=38dae9fa8762baf3ff98a3e2edc55a92,“Bella why are you being selfish, your mom said that you are not concentrating in your studies, you are always alone and sad, why Bella we love you and you are paying like this." Now my dad asked me on dinner.

data-p-id=1e5db0f6164b81777be6d8c6c2019b32,"I am sorry dad, I will try to become a good daughter," I said without any emotion.

“I hope you will not act immature again.” Dad glared at me.

I could not help but felt a lump in my throat.

data-p-id=69347c1bfda928a9b94c48dce4a4bcd3,Dinner finished in silence.

data-p-id=594e2cdd2db3456f60067ca56f1c9c62,In bed~

data-p-id=e770b89328003a17a007cd3c1143fc9f,I thought~

‘data-p-id=2664471518b306fb1646d5cb372a1435,Why I am so selfish, I hate myself, I am worthless, I am useless and that is why I don't have anyone beside me.’

data-p-id=914dd978668b22cc7f51ee04f91f9412,I cried silently that day without realizing that I was hurting my inner soul. That tears was of my soul which were trying to ask for help but no body to help.

‘What happened to me? I had never dreamt something like this. Every day I am shattering little by little. I just wanted to end up everything within a stroke but it is just not ending.’

I had strength left on my body. I was feeling so empty and weak that I could not even move for a mere second. My head was spinning and giving me severe headache. Maybe bullying didn’t break my heart as much as my self-confidence broke.

I could not sleep so I stood in front of my window to get some fresh air. I was feeling weak so I had to take support of my bed to stand up. I thought maybe fresh air could help me bring back my strength.

I stood and peeped out to see the world in night. It was so different from the morning. Everything was silent and peaceful. I didn’t know what brought me a little smile maybe the peaceful night, maybe the cold breeze or the little hope which gave me an assurance that everything would be fine, I should not worry.

I stared toward the sky only to see the thousands and millions of stars and among them a moon which looked like it has painted for thousands years just for me. I felt like moon and stars were trying to say ‘We are here Bella, you don’t have to worry, we are your friend.’ But my happiness was for short term that I could not forgot and that ruined my beautiful moment with stars and moon.

‘Bella this is not a reality you will wake up next day and you will see nobody is there to help you, nobody cares, you will be again left alone with a heart break. It will be again same. Don’t you remember Bell what happened years ago? Don’t you remember Bell friendship is nothing just illumination? Everyone will leave you in the time of your hardship like before. Maybe everything which happened in my life was because of me, maybe I was the one who forced them to do that. I don’t even know how should I feel? Should I feel sad? Should I feel empty? Should I feel guilty? I don’t even know how should I feel and here I am just complaining about others. I am really sorry. I am sorry to my friends, I am sorry to my family, I am sorry to my teachers and also I am sorry to everyone whoever I have known in my life. Everything was my fault maybe.’

I didn’t how or when but I fell in sleep on the floor while the windows were wide opened and the cold breeze was playing with me and maybe whispering ‘Good night everything will change in your life don’t worry’. 

But my sleep didn’t last for long…

data-p-id=89fd6929a1a6a8252c4fa228ade1ba17,Author note:

data-p-id=f702bfe1cc14efd5d2d05ef8121990a5,I hope now you have understood that Bella is the protagonist here and I know she is a very weak character here for some people she will be annoying but believe me after some time she will become stronger after all we all grow up with time.

data-p-id=10b6ee64385f75d48487cc2439534dfc,And thank you for watching for reading guys it means a lot to me, please don't forget to give your feedback

data-p-id=ccaa59914e3afe24575359124ae69541,to be continued~