All Chapters of CLUMSY MERMAID: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

31. XARA. I roll over and my eyes click open, my gaze going directly to the couch. Red is wrapped up in the blanket and it took almost everything in me to look away.I glance at the clock. Six thirty. I have exactly one hour, thirty minutes to get ready.I get off the bed and glance over at Red again. He looks so peaceful when he's asleep. The way his eyes are screw shut, his eyebrows are slightly lifted out. The way his eyelashes touches each other and his mouth pressed into a thin line makes it look as if he's one good perfect guy but in reality, he's so rude and doesn't know how to talk. Always hurting me and expecting me to take the blame at the same time. I mean who does that?He gets playful one minute and the second minute, he's throwing insults at me.But still with everyth

32. XARA. "I'm sorry. "Diana says behind me and I nod slightly, breathing in and out. "I shouldn't have allowed him to stay yesterday night. I didn't knew he was like that, I just thought... I thought you guys were.. I don't know, I thought he loves you and you're meant to be. I didn't know he's that arrogant. "She rambles but all I could focus on is my wrist. It has a deep pink bruise from where Red held it tightly from before.I never thought he would hurt me. Emotionally, granted. He's used to that one. Always doing that but not for a second has it ever crossed my mind that Red was gonna hurt me physically.What would have happened if I hadn't stopped him? "I s

33. XARA. Yes, Diana is right. I own it to myself to be happy.I own it to myself to get my mind off Red and not die, living in heartbreak.I own it to myself to at least try. And I will. "Go get ready. Put on something nice. I'm gonna go prepare something. "Diana smiles at me before walking out and I nod at her before sighing..I walk over to my closet and change into something casual which is just a Jean trouser and a black top.It's evening and Diana just informed me that Blake has come .I take in several breaths before walking downstairs to the living room. "Hey. "He smile at me immediately our gaze met. "Hi. "I mutter nervously b

34. RED. Walking away from her hurts so fucking much. It took everything in me not to just grab her and pull her into my arms but no, not this time around.I made the same mistake the first time and look where that got me? She fucking got hurt and I had to spend my nights with her face haunting me. I'm not good for her, not for a little bit.I'm bad for her and I don't deserve her, I just keep hurting her every single time and I can't change a thing about it.She was glowing so bright and her face was so full with life when she entered the hall.All I wanted to do then was to just pull her into my arms and tell her how sorry I am for hurting her but then, she was searching for someone. I didn't know who until that motherfucker arrived. Blake. Then he had the guts to put his damn fu

35. RED. When you love someone enough to want them to be happy and you can't make them happy cause your life is full of fucked up shits and stupid dark past, you just let them go. Let them be happy no matter how hurt you will be cause you don't deserve them. I love xara. God knows I love her so fucking much but I can't be with her.She's only gonna get hurt with me, I don't deserve her. I won't make her happy like she wants me to. I won't.I will make her cry every damn single day cause of my shit. I will hurt her countless times and I won't even say sorry for it cause that's what I am. That's who I am and that's how I'll always be. I'm so used to pushing everyone away and hurting people without thinking twice about it that it makes me f

36. RED. "You bitch! "Father slapped mother and mother crumbled to the floor, her lips busted while eight years old me and my younger sister, Chloe watches.Chloe won't stop crying while I hold tightly to her hand. "You had the guts to sleep with my own friend in your matrimonial home, on our bed! "Dad yells, unbuckling her belt and mother is still whimpering on the floor. "They are lying to you honey. I swear, they are. I will never cheated on you. You know I will never do such a thing. I love you, I love you so much Harry. I will never cheat on you with your best friend. "Mom cries but dad paid less attention. "Shut your damned mouth shut! You are lying. All yo

37. XARA "Thank you. "I smile at Blake as he hands me a glass of water.Shortly after Red left, I left the party too and I'm glad Blake doesn't seem bothered by it.Diana obviously went away with Pierce, won't be coming back tonight.Now, it's just me and Blake in my apartment. "You still love him? "Blake suddenly ask out of nowhere and I knew who exactly he was talking about. I wanted to tell him that I had no choice, I'm tied to him either ways then I realize Blake doesn't even know I'm not human. I'm a mermaid.And seriously, I am already forgetting that I'm a mermaid too.Except times when my energy is used up and I need to get in the water.But of course telling him that I'm tied anyways i

38. .XARA. For the second time, my back was against the soft couch once again and I moan as Blake bites my lower lip and sucks it.My subconscious tells me that I'm wrong. Not supposed to be doing this but I push her back and every other feeling of guilt.Why should I feel guilty or like I'm doing something bad? I shouldn't, he broke us off. I shouldn't care and that's exactly what I'm doing. Once again, Red's face appears in my mind . That image from the night playing in my head and I screw my eyes shut and distract myself with Blake's lips on mine.This is more than trying to make Blake feel better.It's more than trying to get off with Blake without thinking about him. This is about me and me forgetting him.

39. XARA. Jeanette.Jeanette is standing at the door of my office, eyes wide as she look between Blake and I. "Um, sorry to interrupt you guys, I want to see Miss xara privately. "Blake pulls away from me but not before giving me a peck. "Have fun. "He whispers in my ear before walking out.I sit on my chair and stare at Jeanette who takes slow steady steps, sitting across from me. "You really amaze me xara cause me for one didn't expect that you would be in this position "She laughs. "Oh tell me more Jeanette. Where do you expect to meet me? In what position? Oh you mean, shattered and broken so I

40. XARA. I don't know what happened. I don't know how I find myself here but my legs just led me here and now, here I am. In front of his house. I feel so nervous and I don't know what to expect. Am i doing the right thing? What if Jeanette is wrong?Throughout work, Blake didn't say a word to me again, even during lunch. And when it's time to go home, I didn't want. I merely just grab my bag and practically ran here. Now here I am, in front of his house feeling nervous as hell.I begin to walk inside the building and the familiar air greets me. "Xara? "I turn back and Zayn is staring at me with a smile. One of Red's man. "Are you here to see red? "I nod slowly a