All Chapters of Finding Myself: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

“Since I was nine or ten years old, my mother would send me out to run errands for her. Most of the time these lasted overnight. At first I thought nothing of it, but as I got older, I noticed that it was regularly once a month, always with the full moon. When I was seventeen and she sent me away, I pretended to leave the house, as I always do, without asking any questions. Only this time had I bribed a boy to take this path for me. I hid so that I could keep an eye on the house. It took until it was dark , then I saw my mother let a man into the house . Now my curiosity was really aroused and I crept quietly into the house. The man's and my mother's voices came from their bedroom. Careful not to make any noise, I crept to the door and looked through the keyhole. I saw my mother, with the looks and body of a thirty-year-old, sitting naked on the man's lap, who was also naked. Since they believed they were alone in the house, they spoke in a normal loud voice and I understood every w

Leo stood in the bathroom and looked at her naked body in the mirror. 'Do I look like Zerafina here?' she thought and put her hands on her chest, which was beginning to bulge slightly . She wondered what a naked man would look like. After Leo had put on a panty and a long shirt , she left the bathroom and looked astonished at the group of visitors who had meanwhile gathered in her room . Her eyes searched Draco and looked at him helplessly.Draco understood her look and went to her. He put an arm around her shoulder and pulled her close . "Don't worry, they just want to talk to you," he whispered to her."Sorry for the raid." Lumina began. "If it wasn't important, we wouldn't have come to you at such a late hour."Leo looked from one to the other. "Has something happened?" She asked Lumina."Yes and no." She answered. “But first I would like to introduce you to my companions. You already know Darkness . And this is Lieu, our last god, and here we still have C

When Lumina entered her room, Candle was sitting there dejected in an armchair. Darkness and Lieu sat across from her on the couch and watched her. Candle raised her head as Lumina approached and asked, "How is she?""Better now." Lumina replied. “Now that everything is out, what was on her mind. Please excuse me for a moment , I just want to change my clothes quickly. ""What can I do?" Candle muttered questioningly.“Nothing at the moment.” Lieu replied. "First give her time. I know Leo looks on the outside like she is completely numb, but inside of her it simmers. She just doesn't know yet how to assign her feelings . And I blame you for not showing what you feel, how and when. Everything else is forgivable, you only did that for their protection, but not. "Lumina had returned and heard the last words. She put her hand on Lieu's arm and said reassuringly, “Let it be. There's no point in piling up accusations on Candle, it makes enough of itself. We're not

“I loved her,” he said as if to himself. “Although it is unusual for a god to fall in love with a human woman. But when I first saw her, it happened . And she felt the same way, even though she knew that she was the chosen one, whose only job was to bring my son into the world and to provide for him for the first years of his life. And since she was purely human, there was no way of taking her with me into the other world. And we gods are forbidden to marry. Because that would have been a way to take her with me. We had only this one time, when we fathered our son, because at conception she had to be a virgin. And after that, when she was pregnant, she was off- limits to me. After the birth, I could have visited her as often as I wanted. But that didn't happen, she died in childbirth. Above that I fell into a deep, black hole so that I did not care about my son. When I wanted to take him to Lumina, it was said that he too had died. I believed it, Daleira had brought him to her and l

"I don't think so," replied Draco. "And even if it did, it wouldn't be of much use to us because there isn't enough gas left in it to get to the next gas station .""So we have to run." Grinned Leo."Well then, have fun." Wanja said with a laugh."But I think that Lieu will come up with something ." Zerafina interjected.There was another knock on the door, a young priestess was standing in front of it."Your mother asks you to come to her for dinner," she said .The four of them followed her and were amazed that they were not taken to their mother's room , but to a large hall where the priests and priestesses were sitting at a long table. Lumina sat at the head of the table and Lieu sat next to her . There were two vacancies on the right and left sides . The priestess brought her to these.At the far end of the table, Leo saw Candle sitting, looking at each other with sad eyes. To avoid her gaze, Leo turned to Lumina.After the meal,

The next day, Lieu had Draco and Leo come to."I organized a few things for your trip tonight," he explained. “I will take you to the next town , there you will be expected by one of my angels who will drive you to Tangier. He'll stay with you until you get on the ferry . Another of my people will be waiting for you there, this time in the form of a vampire. When you continue your journey, someone else will always follow you. Don't worry, no one will come with you or, should you spend the night on the way, sleep in your room, ”he added with a grin. "Even in Leo's house you will hardly see your presence, hmm, should I say: Guardian? to notice.""We thank you for that," said Draco. "But why are you doing this for us?""Because I cannot allow anything to happen to the possible Guardian of Light," answered Lieu. “Or my lover's son. She would never forgive me for that. ""That's right." Suddenly the voice of his mother, who was only wrapped in a sheet, was standin

"Nothing," said Leo, turning her head on the other side. She hadn't counted on Draco's stubbornness. He took her chin and turned her face towards him."Don't be fooled," he ordered gently. “I see and feel that something is depressing you. Tell me what it is. "Leo pressed her face to his chest. "I'm doing everything wrong," she sobbed. "I can't kiss and I can't feel.""Oh, little one," Draco comforted her. “Of course you can kiss and you can feel too. For example now, now you feel disappointed. But you don't have to. After all, I love you for who you are. ”With these words he gently stroked her hair.“You see, you know you love me, but I do n't know. I don't know if I love you I just know when you're not with me it's like it's cold around me. It's only warm near you. ”Leo said still with tears."Then I will make sure that you are always warm, I will always be with you." Draco promised and sealed his promise with a kiss.At first Leo hesitated to g

"Come on guys, I'll buy a coffee," Belziel exclaimed happily.Later, when they were sitting at a table upstairs on deck with their coffee , Leo looked at him and asked, "How long have you been a vampire?""Ten times longer than him," Belziel replied, pointing to Draco."Already so long?" Marveled Leo. "And how did you get into it?""By birth," replied Belziel. “Just as humanity evolved, so did we vampires. Do n't ask me what nature's whimsy is. Well, in any case, there have always been primeval vampires who are able to reproduce. That means, actually all vampires can reproduce, not only through the transformation, but very few know that. In any case, my parents were both vampires. "“That means your parents are still alive?” Leo wanted to know."Um, no," Belziel replied. “There was a time like this several centuries ago when we were hunted down and they perished. That was before Lieu took control. Under him the hunt was stopped and he made sure th

Why are you driving to your home? You would have been safer with Lumina. ""Everyone says that," answered Leo. "But I suddenly wanted to go there, I don't know why.""Were you homesick?" Asked Marie."Could be." Leo replied. “I ca n't exactly assign what comes to my mind so suddenly, that is, I don't know what the feeling is. It sounds stupid, but it's true. "Marie didn't know how to answer.“May I ask you something too?” Leo took up the conversation again."Yes, of course, whatever you want." Replied Marie."How did you know that you were in love with Belziel ?" Asked Leo, embarrassed."Well, how do you notice that?" Replied Marie drawn out. "It's hard to describe.""Oh, okay." Leo nodded. "How long have you been a couple?"“Oh, that's been a long time, about a thousand years. When I first saw him, I thought, 'Wow, what a man.' It didn't seem to be any different to him, because he spoke to me directly. It was at the time

"Welcome home," greeted the man who had opened the door for them."Thank you," Leo muttered anxiously and took Draco's hand.“Jean-Baptiste, what are you doing here?” He asked, pleased and astonished.“You know each other?” Leo wanted to know."Yes, for a very long time," Draco replied. "Jean-Baptiste is the man who found us in Venice after our transformation and took us to Madame, where we learned everything a vampire needs to know."Belziel and Marie had also come closer and were greeted by Jean-Baptiste."Are you going to stay the night?" He asked her.Before they could answer, Belziel's cell phone rang."Sorry," he said before answering the phone. After answering, he listened carefully to the caller. At the end of the conversation he said: “We would have liked to stay, but we have a new assignment.” He turned to Marie: “Somewhere in Alaska there are again vampires who do not obey the rules. Madame LeNoire has more information for u