Lahat ng Kabanata ng Keenan Hilton's Chaos: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

"I’m never ever giving you up, I’m never ever leaving you. Instead, I'll forever and ever love and cherish you. I now know that miracles do happen because I met you. You are simply an angel on earth."~Anonymous.Flashback to two years ago.It was approximately six months since my break up with Drew, after walking in on him with another girl when I decided to pay him a surprise visit at his law firm. It was supposed to be a surprise visit and I was going to take us out after because I had gotten promoted to supervisor at the Hilton's hotel and I couldn't wait to tell him, but what I met at his office took that from my mouth.As it so happened, he told the lady that he was single and from what I heard, he had been dating the lady whose name was Lilian for a few weeks before I discove

"Sex is an act which is not possible in self- abasement, only in self-exultation, only on the confidence of being desired and being worthy of desire. It is an act that forces them to stand naked in spirit, as well as in body, and accept their real ego as their standard of value.~Ayn Rand"I'm so glad you're okay babe." he mumbles into my hair and hug me harder. There is so much comfort warm in his arm I chuckle happily, and hug him tightly as well "Me too Levi, me too." I reply, my hands rubbing his back slowly and he seems to relax even more at my touch. It's been under twenty four hours since we last saw each other and it already feels like forever and I don't want to lose it again. He let go of me and takes my lips into his and kisses me deeply and desperately, and I kiss back giving as much as I am receiving. I wrap my arms around his neck and pulling

“They will always be attracted to the person who reflects their deepest vision of themselves, the person whose surrender permits them to experience – or to fake – a sense of self-esteem .. Love is our response to our highest values – and can be nothing else.”~Ayn Rand The phone line ends leaving me torn and anxious in what to do next and I get too occupied that I do not anticipated the knock that comes to my door, causing me to jump, a bit startled almost immediately. An unpleasant feeling coils in my stomach as I debate whether or not to open the door for the stranger sent here by Keenan to pick me up. 'What if Keenan main aim is to get you killed?!' My pessimistic mind yell at me. 'That way he won't have to go through the trouble of divorce, what then?' I won't say he's not that kind of person, because he's a

"Sex is more than an act of pleasure, it’s the ability to be able to feel so close to a person, so connected, so comfortable that it’s almost breathtaking to the point you feel you can’t take it. And at this moment you’re a part of them."~Thom York It has been a week since we began living together, which mentally feels like it's more than a year already as the days past has been the longest I've been in, so long I'd say sixty two hours a day was more accurate. In the past week Keenan had taken it upon himself to make us anything but close. He's hired three maids, one of which is my personal helper and he said that like I was an invalid, two professional chefs, three gardeners two drivers and four security men. He never for once did he ask for my consent in everything he did, well at first I didn't want to give him any advice, but he didn't listen when I tried

 “It’s painful, loving someone from afar. Watching them – from the outside. The once familiar elements of their life reduced to nothing more than occasional mentions in conversations and faces changing in photographs….. They exist to you now as nothing more than living proof that something can still hurt you … with no contact at all. Ranata Suzuki "Why would I ever want to screw myself, when I can always screw you instead?" And immediately he let me go and hands me the towel before walking out of the bathroom. I gasp and cover my mouth, breathing heavily as I watch the door closes behind him. I begin to feel weakness all over my body, especially because he just left me undone and in need of release. How can he do this to me? He didn't have any right to touch me and yet he did. He's tr

"Though these words will never find you, I hope that you knew I was thinking of you today….. and that I was wishing you every happiness.Love Always,The girl you loved once.~Ranata Suzuki Once inside, I notice there are also notable men and women present and although Keenan is still yet to tell me why we are here, I hear small voices talking and putting two and two together, I know this might be an engagement party, not a special event like he made it seem like back at home. "Whose engagement party is this?" I ask Keenan who has been pulling me along with him everywhere since we entered five minutes ago like I'm his own personal toy. "Uh?" He raise a brow at me trying to pay the confusion part, but I know better which gets me even more pissed off. I roll my eyes and st

"You ask everybody you know: How long does it usually take to get over it? There are many formulas. One year for every year you dated. Two years for every year you dated. It’s just a matter of willpower: The day you decide it’s over, it’s over. You never get over it"Junot Díaz Levi walk over to me smiling happily and pulls me to himself and before I can say anything he kisses me softly on the lips and I melt into that kiss only pulling away when I realise we are still in public. "We need to leave here so we won't attract attention." I tell him and he nod happily and takes my hand. He's barely able to keep his eyes and hands off me all the while we drove over to his apartment and it is almost the same with me, "You look real beautiful Vary," he says to me, as he opens the door to his apartment and ushers me inside. "T

"Sex and beauty are inseparable, like life and consciousness. And the intelligence which goes with sex and beauty, and arises out of sex and beauty, is intuition."~D. H. Lawrence "Who's she Keenan?" I ask Keenan who look lost between the two women beside him. I don't need the answer, no I didn't want the answer because I already know who she is. This was why he threw me away yesterday, he wanted to sleep around with some other woman. My heart is breaking, but then again what did I even expect? He doesn't love me or even like me and I have given my heart already to him! Who does that? A pathetic loser. The woman although in a towel is a walking beauty and I think at this point she knows that. She's medium height and the towel does not hide her great curves. Her straight blonde hair reaching behind her back her eyes are al

Guys, in case you are wondering when this is happening, (Keenan and Rory discussion) it is during the time in His Own Undoing when Taylor threw Rory out and Keenan took him to an hotel. Just wanted to clear that up. "I miss that feeling of connection. Knowing he was out there somewhere thinking about me at the same time I was thinking about him."~Ranata Suzuki "She said 'I love you.'" I reply walking away from the window and towards the bed and I sit down next to him. "Your wife proclaiming her affection towards you shouldn't be something that would make you feel this disturbed." If his ignorance hasn't made me feel bad before, it just did. I wouldn't say I blame him though, we haven't been in much contact since I got back. In fact we haven't really been friends since the last four years, not after he accused me of sleeping

“As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody if I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.~Charlie Chaplin "Good morning princess." He greets politely. From what I can see on he, he only have his black Calvin Klein briefs and his black singlet on for covering. The rest part of his body are exposed to my eyes, his muscled arms and from his mid thigh down are exposed with thick muscles and long dark hair from his kneel downwards. "Morning." I reply feeling a little disconnected and suspicious all of a sudden, "What are you doing?" I step away from the door, but not going anywhere close to me. I tighten my hands around the white towel I have on, which barely covers much.&nbs