All Chapters of The Retired Gang Leader.: Chapter 61 - Chapter 68

I was sitting on the chair next to Lotus's bed as she laid there sleeping off the heavy doses of medication that they had pumped into her body after surgery. I had never felt so useless and terrified in my life.The thoughts that kept running in my head were horrifying, only if I had moved quicker then maybe she would be awake right now annoying the crap out of me, but instead, she was here on this bed bandaged and being helped by a ventilator in order to breath and its all my fault. Holding onto her hand I looked at her and brought my hand to touch her curls, the curls I love twirling my finger around when we lay in bed talking about anything and everything. It's really easy to talk to her, but with her sleeping it's difficult and I just want to hear her voice, even if it's just to curse me out.Squeezing her hand thinking she will respond and squeeze mine back but she doesn't, her cold fingers touch mine in an embrace I'm forcing, trying to warm them up

I had just taken a shower that Tiffany forced me into taking because for the past three days I had been sitting next to her, watching her curly hair become flatter. Grabbing my shirt I walked to the room Lotus was resting in, buttoning my shirt up I opened the door and I heard her melodic laugh. "There you are!" She chirped and I stood by the door fazed, I wasn't here when she woke up. "You're up," I whispered not believing my eyes, she gestured to her body and giggled."I'm wide awake, are you just going to stand there and watch me or are you going to come hug me?" She said in a suggestive tone and still I stood there just watching her. "You would think he was the one that got shot." She mumbled, Charlie and Tiffany laughed and she laughed too but ended up coughing.Rushing over to her side I helped her sit up straighter and gave her some water to drink. "Are you okay?" I asked her and she waved me off."I'm fine, I missed you." She sa

After months of having to attend therapy sessions, eleven torturous months of sitting in front of Dr Meyer and telling her all about my problems and how I feel, its been absolute hell and I am very happy that this is my last session with her. At first, I never opened up about anything and would always fire back her questions to her, for example, she would ask me 'how do you feel about that?' and I would answer her with a 'how do you think I feel about that?' I know she is here to help me get over my guilt and try to understand my emotions a bit better but come on, even you have to admit that some of the questions are a bit retarded."So Lotus, how do you feel about this being our last session together?" "Uh, I'm I supposed to feel some type of a way?" I asked her, does she want me to be sad and weeping that I won't be seeing her anymore and I won't have to answer questions and have her prove a point to me that would bug me out for a whole week until

The preparations for this day were stressful and fun at the same time, having my best friend or should I say my sister here to help me was a huge relief! Sitting on the bed together I watched her as she tried to fit her gown but it wouldn't get past her hips."You have been gaining a lot of weight these days Tiff," I commented paging through the book she brought for me to get back in the mode of reading hardcover books, and so far? Still not interested, which is crazy cause I remember how much I used to love them when I was a kid. Oh well, I guess growing up changes a lot of things."Yeah, I think I've been eating quite a lot...""Out with it Tiff, you pregnant?" I asked her closing the book and looking at her, her head dropped and she slowly nodded. "Why were you quite about it?" "I didn't want to seem careless when I told you the news after you had just...you know," She said in a small voice and I frowned. "I'm sorry Lotus, it wasn't even my inten

Antonio stood at the alter waiting for his bride to be, officially and right this time to come out. He too couldn't believe that the day had finally arrived and they were both ready to settle down so quickly together and yet surprisingly they were both more than ready for this change.It wasn't really a change considering that they had been living together for a long time and they had already been technically married just without Lotus knowing but now they had to do it in front of everyone this time and with her clear knowledge that it was happening.Antonio stood staring ahead at the door Lotus was supposed to come out off, which she hadn't yet and it made him feel nervous and panicky, that's why he had sent Charlie to go get her and Tiffany. They weren't late per se, but he just wanted to see her and hold her. He heard a noise that sounded like cheering on and he wondered what it was all about, the doors bursting open and causing everyone to look at them

Antonio and I just arrived at his private beach house that he had just bought a month ago. It was absolutely beautiful! I loved it, as soon as I walked in I knew this would be my runaway to place whenever I felt like I needed a break. As soon as I stepped in through the door I was engulfed in earthly scents and a comforting feel of the place. It was definitely an open space and just from standing by the door I could see the kitchen, living room and some other room that I couldn't really distinguish what it was but it was beautiful and more space for me to run around the house.Putting our bags down on the floor, Antonio stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me to him, rocking our bodies slowly he leaned towards my ear and kissed my earlobe."Do you like it?" He whispered in my ear and I leaned into him."I love it," I said and he kissed my neck moving his hands to my hips and keeping them over my stomach he unbuttoned my shirt

"Good morning Mrs Rossi," A voice whispered in my ear and I pushed his face away from me, mumbling a pained no. "Come on its time to wake up.""But I don't want to, leave me alone please," I turned my body away from him and the idiot seemed to follow me. Sticking his wet finger into my ear I jumped out the bed and looked at him horrified. "What the hell is wrong with you?" I shouted at him and he laughed looking at me."Come on, you promised to watch them today," He said walking over to me with his arms open for me, walking right into the hug I wrapped my arms around his waist and his hands touched the edge of his shirt before grabbing my ass. "They're not kids Ant, they will be just fine," I mumbled sleepily against his chest and he moved my hands from his waist wrapping them around his neck, picking me up he walked us into the bathroom. "A promise is a promise Fiore," He said sitting me down on the countertop as he opened the shower for me.

So I lost the bet, Johnny the big guy didn't win against the small guy and I was hurt, to say the least. "So are you ready?" Antonio whispered cockily in my ear and I frowned following Johnny with my eyes, I will get him later.  Nodding my head trying to seem confident yet I was crapping myself, I wasn't ready for anything but a bet is a bet and I will keep my end of the bargain and carry out with the bet, I'm no wimp. "You know, it's okay if you don't want to..." He said as we walked together hand in hand."No!" I shouted and cleared my throat, "I mean I want to," I nodded my head trying to convince him but all I was doing is convincing myself even more."Okay then, you will love it!" He explained and I pressed my lips together and slowly followed him to our room, "Wait we have to eat.""Yes! Totally agree, I'm starving, I'll go make us food." I rushed to turn around but he caught me by my waist. "That's why we have maids to help