CHAPTER NINE ‘Chance’

“What are you looking for?” Cameron asked popping out from the least place I expected him to pop out from- the tree branch. It was as though he had been watching my entire move which made me annoyed but I pretended as though I didn't know anything. 

Even though we knew each other from the past, he was probably just a fling to the old beauty and I didn't trust him anymore especially with what Ziyah told me. It might sound a bit weird but I felt Ziyah words in my soul, I believed she wouldn't lie to me no matter what. And besides, in the past Ziyah and I talked mostly about useful things and fun but most memories I had with Cameron were always explicit. We never really talked about useful things which made me suddenly distrust him coupled with what Ziyah said to me. What if he was just taking advantage of me.

Everything did not seem right. Ziyah had not seen me for four hundred and eighty years, how did I suddenly become pregnant in such short while with Cameron's child. And why didn't I lose my memories in a town with many people? Why did it have to be a desolate area with Cameron?

Could it be he gave me a drug to lose my memories? I'd never heard of people losing their memories after taking a drug but I still didn't feel good about Cameron.

“Beauty?” Cameron said snapping me out of my thoughts. I turned to face him and faked a smile, “Cameron, tell me everything about my past including the one of my parents!”

The calmness in his face disappeared replaced with fear, “You got one third of your powers back” I smirked and walked around him, “Fun, right? I didn't even have to try to remember my past but my magic naturally came back to me. Teach me how to use it please? Tell me which you're going to do first, will you tell me the whole story of my past or teach me how to use my powers. I know you're capable of doing more than just a simple trick, show me your powers Cameron”

His face darkened, “Ziyah! She gave you half of her intelligence”

“Maybe. Why do you sound so nervous about it? Is it because you're hiding something from me and you're scared if I find out I'll not be calm about it?”

Cameron stiffened but recovered himself quickly and grabbed my hands while staring intensely into my eyes, this time I didn't shyly back out but stare back at him confidently, “I can show you how powerful I can be in bed, would you like to see?”

I snatched my hands away from his and scoffed, “Is that your way of backing out of a serious conversation?” I walked past him and stopped just a few metres from his back, “What a coward! Prince of seven hells my ass!” With that I walked into my house not caring about his hurt feelings. I instantly went to bed to take a rest.

I closed my eyes and reminsced the past memories I managed to gather.

A beautiful woman in red drinking wine.. A seductress seducing Cameron.. A friend and a master to Ziyah. That woman was me. 

The door to my room opened and I closed my eyes, pretending to be asleep. I didn't want to face Cameron. Even though I was acting like the old me, It didn't feel natural. As much as I suspected Cameron of taking away my memories, I was out of line insulting his title because he didn't live up to it. He had been nice to me since the day I first met him but because of my spectaculations about him I was rude to him and I felt bad about it.

I felt Cameron's presence behind me and i held my breath nervously, he reached near my hair and caressed the back. “I promise I'll tell you everything you want to know after you give birth, right now is not convenient because of the baby” 

My heart literally jumped when he said that, he was no longer going to hide anything from me after I give birth. I wanted to ask if he was serious about his words but I already pretended to be asleep so I had to continue pretending.

“I've always loved you, in our past life and now. It sucks because I've tried forgetting you and my feelings because you never looked at me the same way. In the past.. all you wanted was my body and now.. you even hate me.” he chuckled to himself and my heart ached when I heard his confession.

The guilt I felt doubled. He had always been good to me but I couldn't reciprocate his kindness in his past life and even in this life. Though I apologized to him, I messed up and he even got hurt because of me.

Now that I thought about, I felt ungrateful and selfish. I did not deserve him.

“I love you so much that It hurts because I know I'll never be one to own your heart even if we had a thousand babies together” I could hear his voice get shaky from how he was holding back his tears.

After gathering himself together, he kissed my head and walked out the door closing it gently as his footsteps faded along the hallway.

I wiped the tears that were always falling on my pillows. I felt really bad for Cameron, he'd done a lot for me but I could never repay him. The least I could do was give him a chance to be with me.

If it worked out well then good. If it didn't then at least I would be content I gave Cameron a chance to love me, get bored and find himself a closure and move on with his life. There were many girls that deserved this amazing man. It would be a waste of time with me.

Making up my mind, I smiled and tossed around in bed uncomfortably.