Its his own fault (12)

Aaron"

He heard the cold deep voice of Grace. He was turning around from where he was sitting on the sofa in the living room with his laptop on his lap.

"Yes" finally after what feels like centuries he heard Grace's voice. It's been so long Grace tried to talk with him. It feels so good to listen to his name from her mouth.

"Asher has constantly been whining to go to the park" she informed him.

Aaron's eyes sparkled at that, and he instantly offered.

"Yeah, sure we will go together and eat lunch ou－" her voice cut him off.

"No, I'm not coming. Just go with him" she coldly spoke with her usual emotionless face and went away from there without waiting for Aaron's reply.

"But－" he sighs.

It always happens like this. Grace refuses to go anywhere he suggests.

She is doing the same which he did to her.

"Aaron, can I come in?" Aaron stopped typing on his laptop when he heard Grace voice behind the door of his office door situated at the end of the hallway of his house.

He sighs already annoyed just by her voice. Her presence irritates him. "Come in" Grace walked inside and gave him a small smile, she stood in front of him nervously playing with her fingers. Her bottom lips between his teeth.

"What? Are you going to say anything or not?" Grace heart ramming inside her chest. Don't know how to ask him.

"Grace get out! You are wasting my time" Grace jumps at the booming voice of her mate.

"I-I want to a-ask you something" she hastily said, not wanting to annoy her mate more than she already did by her pathetic nerves.

"Ask away and get out!" Grace bites his lips.

"I-I thought if w-we should go and e-e-eat dinner outside, as a d-date?" she nervously asked, holding her breath. She was scared of what Aaron would say.

"What makes you think I will go outside with you, it's a shame even to call you my mate." Grace's eyes welled up with tears; her heartfelt a heaviness hurting to even breath properly like a pathetic girl.

Hearing from your mate, your that he is ashamed of you is the biggest slap at her face, making her insecure to the core she feels like a dirty fag to even stand in front of her mate. She feels ashamed of herself, not wanting Aaron even to see her face because she feels ugly and unwanted.

Her nose flared trying to keep in her tears as not to make Aaron think more ugly and pathetic that she already is of herself.

She apologized and turned around practically ran out of there but can't help the pathetic sob that left her throat at the solemn and hurt feeling in her heart. She choked on her tears on the way out of there.

Aaron sighs and rubs his eyes, the heaviness in his heart worsen as the image of his mates hurt, and crying mate comes into his mind fresh like it just happened yesterday.

How can he do this? How could he tell her such cruel words? And he's complaining why Grace is not coming with him.

It's his fault. All his fault.

He knows what it means to hear such words from your mate; it's not pleasant. No one will wish to listen to that from their mate. That crushed you whole, mates are fragile and soft heated they can't take it.

And no he's not ashamed of her, his mate. He's not; he will never.

At that time, there were some problems in his mayor office that he was highly annoyed and mad at, that he took it out on Grace when she asked him. He did feel bad after that because it was at the moment, he didn't want to tell her that. Sure he is always annoyed and irritated at him, but he never wishes to say something shameful to Grace. He's not that heartless to play with someone else's feelings.

Mostly when he also felt that... but that's a story for another time.

But he shrugged it off at that time; he was too prideful to apologize to anyone, even if he was her mate, his parents, his colleague. He won't apologize to anyone. His dominance and dignity didn't allow him to look down in front of anyone.

Is this how Grace feels when he rejects her every time she asks to go out. Is this how she feels she feels when he ignored him back then, not paying attention to her. When he jerked her away from himself every time she tried to make skinship?

How did she cope up with all his deeds?

It's so hard. His chest is blowing up with heaviness every time he thinks about the past. The guilt that made a permanent place in his heart worsened every new memory his mind popped up with making him feel regret every corner of his body creeping into his soul.


If he feels this hard to cope up this guilt and regret....

How can Grace do that?

She's a young fangirl, weakest of all out there. 

Grace had to feel all the hurt and humiliation. She was living with all those hurtful words, his behaviour and the longing and much more.

And he's not even ten steps there to feel what Grace feels......