All Chapters of Hush, Baby: Chapter 21 - Chapter 30

Why am I even feeling this sad and frustrated, I ask myself as I look at my hands which were placed on my lap, trying my hardest to prevent the stupid tears from falling.Who was that woman? That gorgeous, classy, rich woman? And why was he meeting her in a restaurant in a mall?I don’t believe she was a normal acquaintance of his, for he wouldn’t hang up on me if she was!He could have simply excused himself for a second to pick up or text, but he didn’t, and that frown on his face showed that he wasn’t happy with my call while he was with her!I don&rsqu

“Maisie!” I whisper at my friend and she follows my line of sight to see the creepy guy standing under the same tree, smoking a cigarette, and watching my window with a weird expression!His face is completely undecipherable, not a single emotion is clear, he just looks at my window every few seconds, then looks down and takes a puff of his cigarette!“What the hell! This is creepy!” Maisie says with a frown, not caring about the driver coughing in annoyance, the gears in her head are obviously working, and I know why, for I am having the same debate inside my head!Should I go talk to him or not! Am I ready for it? I mean sure, this is wh

“I am afraid it was all my fault! For I wasn’t the best husband nor father!” he looks at his hands, avoiding my eyes, I sense his nervousness and embarrassment, his voice is laced with shame when he confessed this, and I am…I don’t know how to exactly describe my feelings, it is as if I am swinging from overwhelmed to numb, and at one point, I feel that my heart is overwhelmed to the brim that it can no longer feel! I am surprised by what he said, and the fact that he admitted it on his own is quite applaudable, but in the same time, I am scared of what I am going to hear next! I can’t believe this is it! So simply!

There was tightness, suffocation, chaos, heaviness, but slowly, all of that was lifted, and there was lightness and warmth taking over my body, and next thing I know, I woke up!When did I fall asleep?The room is dim, not dark though, and these faint voices coming from behind the closed door of my bedroom, I can’t quite understand them, I look around me for my phone, I need to know what time is it, but I can’t find it anywhere near me!Right, it is still inside my purse on the sofa where I have left it before running away like a coward, unable to take my shame!I won

I take a deep breath and open the texts, I really doubt I am going to find any hearts and flowers in them, and I am a little scared to face his rage!Why? No fucking idea! And it makes me feel ridiculous how scared I am from few written words, manning up, I start reading the texts. I see the last one was sent only few minutes ago, and it says:“I know you were awake!” Okay! This is awkward! And I guess my acting skills are not as good as I hoped they would be. With less courage, I scroll to the first ones and start reading in order:The first one is him apologizing f

“You look pale, Baby!” Maisie asks while we walk out of the bank, somehow for I don’t know how my legs are still functioning, she keeps telling me to take break or take a seat but I ignore her and keep walking back to the car.“Are you feeling well?” No! I feel like I have just been slapped across the face, hard, with a cricket bat!And for a very obvious reason!I have hoped that I had some savings hidden somewhere, something that might help me sustenance myself during these days instead of being a complete liability on Maisie and

“He didn’t pick up?” I shake my head, disappointment written all over my face, he never picks up when I need him, and it is becoming a little frustrating!“Now what?” she asks with an annoyed sigh, her disappointment, unlike mine, isn’t expressed through a sad expression but rather an irritated one.I don’t know what to do, and I feel this weight at the pit of my belly, a wariness and fear from what was coming, and I am really considering Maisie’s earlier offer of going back home and delay the visit, the surprising news from the bank were something! But the reporters and my case going public is just too much, being surrounded by them that way, with all the flashing lights and mixed voices almost mad

I stand and watch as Maisie leaves, waving at her with a small smile, trying to hide my guilt for ditching my best friend, once her car is out of my sight, I turn to the man standing in front of me.I have to admit, I am feeling anxious and wary of our proximity, I can hear my own heart beats, but surprisingly, I don’t feel scared at all for staying alone with Nate, I do have plenty of questions for him though, I just hope this bubbly feeling I feel inside me won’t stop me from doing so.“You look so beautiful!” he says with an approving smile as he runs his eyes over my body, not in a creepy lustful way, just as if evaluating my general appearance, I feel heat creeping up my face while I murmur a small thank you.

‘I did NOT see that one coming’ I hear my little devil whispering for me, with equal shock, confusion, and even disgust as the one I am feeling right now!what the fuck?!What in the name of sweet baby Jesus did I just hear?!And what is this even means?! I hear my little devil scoff and I must give it to him. Master and pet, what else can it mean?!I must have heard wrong! I tell myself as I look at him with confused eyes, demanding explanation.No, not explanation, more like, demand

“And you kissed me?!” my question sounds like a statement, and he smiles at me, something flashing in the back of his eyes, a memory that made his green orbs radiate with happiness and satisfaction.“And I felt like the king of the world while doing so!” he says while placing his hand on the side of my jaw, it is warm and I can’t help but lean into the inviting touch, his thumb  finds its way to my lips, he first brushes the corner, so slowly and torturously, the small contact makes my whole body reacts strangely, for I feel so relaxed as if my body is immersed in warmth and softness, his thumb moves but the feeling of his touch lingers behind for several seconds, giving me all kinds of mixed signs, a rich sensation that is meant to last even after it ends