Prologue

Prologue:

Love is a thrill ride. Love is a battlefield. Love is a fragile flower opening to the warmth of spring

He is a shining star. He is a night owl. His heart is a cold iron.

Our lives came screeching to a halt. Time marches to the beat of its own drum. The words appeared to leap off of the paper as he read the story.

He did not realize that his last chance was walking out the door.

Falling in love with your best friend is challenging.

You fall in love without any reason.

You fall in love with his gesticulations. Sweet gestures you gave intenser meaning. 

How about you? Have you experienced falling in love with your best friend? How was it? Is it hard?

Did you try to confess your true feelings? If yes, how’s the outcome? Is your friendship being still okay and strong? Or there are discomfiture and gaucherie in between of your friendship?

If not, maybe you're like me because I've been hiding my feelings for a long time. Why? I have countless reasons.

I was frightened he might get away when he found out.

I fear that our one-year friendship might shatter.

I am afraid of people's judgment.

The most difficult is when I gradually fall in love with my friend. It's even harder because as time goes by I can’t control my feelings anymore...

He’s just nothing for me before. He’s only just an acquaintance. A classmate. But I didn’t notice that my feelings commenced developing.

The wind shifted. I ate what I’ve said before. I don’t know why I treat him differently. I don’t know why I fell in love with him.

Maybe it's because I knew he was a genuine and generous man and I had a chance to investigate his traits. He has the qualities I’ve been looking for in a man.

I did everything for him. He makes me happy, he helped me with my studies, he gave me a reason to fall in love with the most sensible person I know. 

But...

I fell for him but I didn't know my friend had fallen for him either.

This is my fault why my friend fell for him. I introduced my friend to him and I never knew my friend would like the person I love.

It was great at the very start

Even when I know it's wrong, tell me, how can I

keep holding on?

I’m scared to be lonely.

I will not force my feelings if you are not the only one, I will eventually love for the rest of my life. 

You are the reason why I get up in the morning, the purpose of my simper every time I am glad and dripping of my tears because of crying alone. If it wasn't for you, then I wouldn't have to try to hope for the two of us.

I cannot control my heart every time you are by my side. My heart pounds aggressively whenever I glanced at you.

I know it's wrong but I'll wait for you.

Hopefully, at the last moment, notice my heart that never stopped loving you.

What if I confess my feelings and you also have feelings for me?

I know it’s absurd and impossible...

Can't say how I feel

Couldn't come, just nervous for what I was undergoing

I can’t move, I can just only gawk. Glaring in your copper-coloured peepers, bushy brows and nice-looking features

I will never forget the appearance of your face etched into my cognisance. You are the light in the gloom, the light of the murky world. Light in my restless heart.

Welcome to the story of unspoken truth and hidden feelings, pain and regrets.