Human

In fact, I had to call Letaya and tell her to get some fake ID, please.

But the harder part came when I had to tell Grandma and Grandpa that I wouldn't be returning home for a while. Maybe forever.

When we ate together that evening, I took the chance and started with a gentle throat clearing. "I have to tell you something."

My stomach contracted just at the thought. People had never seemed so strangely important to me, even after seeing thousands of them die in World War I. But now everything was different and I had to think again about my parents who had been killed by the two men in the house.

“I'm going to Alaska with Mr. Colnius for a while. He apparently has an important appointment with his senior manager there and needs a secretary to help. It will probably take months. "

Of course the story I was telling was total bullshit, but Grandma and Grandpa would believe me because I had never lied to them before. Until now .

"So long?" Grandma dropped the fork on the table and looked clearly shocked. "How long have you known that?"

Honestly, it's only been a few hours. “For two weeks, I just didn't know how to teach you. Mr. Colnius is giving me a decent raise, and that's the only reason I took the chance. "

“And you don't know when you'll be back? It comes so suddenly, Anora. ” Anora, my human name . "But if you get more money and you really want to do that, then of course we don't want to stand in your way, dear."

Grandpa answered and smiled at me, which gave me another kick in the stomach. I hadn't eaten much of my meal yet, but my appetite was waning every second. Because it was my last dinner with them. “Mary is right. I think you're grown up enough to finally take your life into your own hands. Mr. Colnius has always spoken good about you and he would be delighted if you supported him in Alaska. Do you call us now and then? "

I nodded and swallowed hard the chewed food. That will probably no longer be possible. What will you think when you find out that I just disappeared without a trace? You have already lost mum and dad ... and now me too. Oh god, why does everything suddenly feel so wrong?

"Yes, I will." I can no longer sit here. I can't breathe ... have to ... get ... out of here . "Excuse me, I still have to pack and therefore want to go to bed earlier."

Grandma and Grandpa nodded. Just before I was about to go up, they stopped me. "But we'll have dinner together tomorrow morning, won't we?"

I answered yes to her question and disappeared upstairs to my room, where I let myself fall on the bed with a loud sigh. To hell! What was wrong with me? The other three had no problems with it - according to our meeting today . Why me Was something wrong with me? Actually, I should no longer feel pity or sadness at all. Or maybe it was just an aftermath of my human existence. If I left Grandpa and Grandma, this feeling would definitely go away, I was sure.

The next morning I quickly packed up a large suitcase that I would need for the new accommodation. Breakfast with Grandma and Grandpa was no better than yesterday's dinner. They also talked about old times and what we had experienced together. I suppressed the sadness and pity with great strength. Instead, anger and coldheartedness made their way through my heart - the true nature of Lilit .

I helped them wash the dishes and put my suitcase by the door. When it was time to say goodbye, this concentrated frustration that I was suppressing threatened to break out the moment Grandma hugged me lovingly. She stroked my hazel hair and tears backed up in my eyes. No, Lilit, you are a creature from hell! Satan is your real father! Your creator!

Next, I was hugged by Grandpa, who had been the first to immediately decide to help me when Ma and Pa died. He'd always talked to me a lot, as if to distract me from the sadness and pain. But even though I didn't want to admit it, this terrible experience stayed in my heart - even as a being from hell. As soon as I think of her, the pain returns.

"Get in touch, little one," Grandma said as I left the house with the suitcase and put it in the car. Fortunately, they didn't ask if they should drive me to the airport. As an excuse - since the car would then be in a parking garage for three to four months - I said that I would leave it in the garage of my boss. The company would pay for the taxi to go to the airport.

Oh man, so many lies at once ...

As I sat in the car, through the windshield, I saw Grandma and Grandpa waving goodbye with proud smiles. I wondered why I had controlled myself so well over the past three years and now that I had to leave them, I felt like I was still eighteen and had just got all my true memories back.

I wanted to scream, hit the steering wheel angrily, step on the pedals, drive backwards and hope that the tree on the opposite side of the street would put me in a coma.

The feeling I was feeling right now was indescribably hideous. On the one hand, it made me proud to serve the devil and to complete a mission again with my three other hell beings. On the other hand, being human plagued me, because it called Anora up inside me and suppressed Lilit so well that I felt more human at the moment than I should.

I made a decision: I have to get out of here now . Without looking at Grandma and Grandpa any more, I backed off the property and prepared for my upcoming mission. I had to forget them, even if they had looked after me so touchingly over the past few years that they actually didn't deserve to be left alone. What would happen after three to four months if they found out that I didn't answer? They would have the same thoughts when we lost Ma and Pa.