Chapter 10: A Little Somethin'

  "I know this is… different, but I have somethin' I gotta get off my chest," he said as he scratched his arm. That meant Tony was nervous. Dillon stayed quiet. "I wouldn't have said anything if it wadn't for the fact that it's got me feelin' mad guilty and it's gotten worse."

  He came further into the room and hopped on the bed and positioned himself until he laid next to where Dillon sat on the edge. When he settled, he saw Tony gesture for him to lay next to him. There was definitely a certain tension in his body language and apprehension in his gaze. Dillon got up and rolled next to him. While he decided on what he wanted to say, Tony reached over and gently squeezed his hand.

  "I've been havin' a hard time lately with… my sex drive and chicks. I'll say it bluntly… it's gotten worse and includes other guys a lot more now. When yer not here, I keep myself level headed by uhm… w-well… I-I watch porn. A lot of porn, dude. Straight porn usually, but lately there's been more and more desire for guys. Earlier today even. I can watch it for hours… my sex drive has been crazy and if I didn't, I feel it'd be hard to control myself out in the world… 

  Fuck, it's been drivin' me nuts, dude. I feel nasty for lookin' for that pleasure anywhere other than with you. I-it's so hard to not have you all the time… know this though. You are the only one I will be with. I swear it. Yer the only one I love, even though my wanderin' eye sickness makes me need to jerk off. I still don't know why I'm tellin' you this at all… I just had to say somethin' before we were together physically again… I don't know, it just wears on me," he finished. Dillon looked at him as he stared at the ceiling. 

  After a moment, Tony looked over to him. He must have realized he hadn't given him permission to speak yet. That was fine, a minute was definitely appreciated to process the information. Dillon smiled softly at him. What Tony was concerned about was something they had talked about before. Why was he so hard on himself? The dude wasn't dead yet, why'd he think he wasn't allowed to even look at anyone else? So long as he was honest and loyal, which he was, Dillon didn't care if he watched porn. Sometimes they didn't get to see each other for stretches of time, so he totally got it. 

  Besides, he watched porn too. It was a good way to study different techniques to please Tony with. It also helped him blow off some steam and focus when he needed Tony and couldn't have him at that moment. To get off to a video strictly to blow off steam was nowhere near the same thing as to be with someone else physically. Tony didn't cheat on him. In fact, Dillon was a little annoyed when Tony said he had jerked off earlier that day.

  "S-speak," Tony said with shaky bravado.

  "Tone, please tell me you recorded yer load if you jerked off earlier?"

  "Uhm- n-no, why?"

  "I wanted that and you knew I'd be over later. But anyway. Dude, haha, I don't care that you watch porn. I watch porn. Everyone watches porn. How do you think I learn to keep up with you so fast? And I know what yer talkin' about… the stress piles up and you need a release. So take it. I own yer body, not yer whole existence, hehe. So long as I'm the only one to look and touch. Yer fine, man-"

  "-It's not fine. Yer supposed to be the only one I look at like that. I'm wastin' myself on gettin' off to people that ain't you. And it's extendin' to guys now, too. I even gotta be on my guard when I go to the fuckin' store in case I see a person that tempts me."

  "You love me, yes?"

  "You know I do!"

  "Then relax. I understand the need for release. Again, yer not goin' out fuckin' any of 'em-"

  "-Yet," Tony added sullenly. 

  "Ok, then we'll prevent that part. 'Cause I don't care about you watchin' porn. That's laughable that you'd think I would."

  "The part where you think you'll step out physically. I'll tell ya what. Can you make me a promise?"

  "I- err… uh, maybe. I'd have to uh- hear what it is."

  "Well, I got my learner's permit now, and this summer I'm buyin' the Hyandai from mom. When I'm able to drive wherever by myself, anytime you feel that need, call me to come serve you! Any time!

  "H-huh? Dude, wha-"

  "For real! Even if I'm at school or work or yer at work or the store or-or I don't care really! Order me to your location and use me. Promise me?"

  "I can't promise that, dude. What, you'd come to the store and suck me in the parking lot?"

  "Oh, c'mon! You fucked my throat in an alley in Center City and we loved it. Anywhere you may be I can pick you up, swing somewhere secluded, and service you. Promise me. I wanna be yer cure!"

  "I like the idea but… I don't know. You got school, too…"

  "I can duck out now n' then, it ain't hard. You wouldn't need me around that time often with yer work n' all anyway."

  "Uhhh…"

  "It can be one of our things. Please, promise? Then you won't have to worry 'bout bein' tempted by others! I'll be a call away," Dillon said as he propped himself up on his elbow. Tony was quiet for a moment. 

  "Fine, hahaha. I promise. Seriously, thanks kid. You really aren't… upset that I get off to porn?"

  "Not at all, can I watch next time?" He smiled wide.

  Tony looked at him and a grin spread across his face. It grew wider by the second until he broke out in laughter. Never in a million years would that smile never be the key to Dillon's heart. What brilliance. When Tony composed himself, he rolled over onto his side and kissed his forehead and his lips before he returned to his back. He spread his legs and slipped a few fingers into his waistline. 

  "I feel a lot better now. Yer the best. Now, can you strip for me?"

  Dillon was a little caught off guard. Did Tony just ask him to strip? Why did Dillon like that as much as he did? Where would it lead, he wondered. After a couple quick nods, he got up and began to strip. Then he remembered another birthday gift he had for Tony in his jacket pocket. He grabbed a nice metal and leather mouth restraint out of the inner pocket. It was basically a tool to keep one's partner's mouth forced open. There were several different settings to control how wide it would hold their mouth open, along with an emergency release. It would hopefully take a lot of the control away from him and give Tony a new fun sensation. 

  "Oh, yea! I got you a little somethin'! But first-" Dillon hopped back onto the bed and fastened the chain sword around Tony's neck. "-there we go. Thought I was forgettin' somethin'. Anyway, here," he added as he held out the mouth brace for him to fully see. His eyes lit up when he realized what it was. 

  "F-fuck, Dill! Put it in for me? Widest setting?" Tony was definitely in an affectionate mood. Dillon could get down with gentle and sensual.

  "Hell yea."

  While Dillon undid the buckle on the mouth brace, Tony slid his sweats and boxers off, and his erection stood glorious and ready for Dillon to have. Next, he peeled off the Avenged Sevenfold t-shirt, followed by the tank top, and tossed them on the floor. When the mouth brace was set and equipped, Dillon gave Tony the key. His eyes widened again. He clearly didn't expect that.

  "It locks!- and you trust me to-" Dillon nodded. "Have I told you yer the best fuckin' guy out there?!" Dillon gave him two thumbs up as Tony continued on with his instructions. "Mind if we do somethin' different? I wanna go deep n' slow. See how long you can hold yer breath for?"

  Dillon nodded excitedly a couple times. It would be a little different. They'd only done things that way once before and they both loved it. It still took a lot for Dillon to keep up, but Tony was very gentle and attentive. While he loved to be used, Dillon appreciated the times when Tony treated him like precious cargo. It made him feel special. That said, he had to mentally prep himself regardless. His man was not small and to go slow and deep would be a workout. The praise he got for it made it so worth it, however. 

  Tony waved a couple fingers towards himself for Dillon to move in between his legs. He spat in his hand and stroked himself. Dillon met his heavy lidded gaze and felt the heat in his presence. It was a look that said he was ready to take his time and enjoy. It was a look that made Dillon hard as diamond in a second. The dude really was a sex god or some shit.