Tears of a sad Goodbye

" Hey Dilan stop that," I said as I tried to avoid his nose sniffing my neck " it tickles," I said and pushed him

" Good morning love," he said and kissed me on the forehead

Such a sweet man

" Good Morning too," I said and kissed him on the cheek

" Come on down breakfast is ready," he said and stood up from the bed

" Okay I'll just take a very quick shower " I answered and winked at him.

" Okay then" He answered back and winked at me.

Thank you God for giving me a sweet and nice boyfriend, I don't know if I did something great on my past life to receive a special treatment today, I went inside the bathroom and took a quick shower, I stared at the mirror and smile.

After taking a bath I quickly changed my clothes and run down to the dining table

" Hey sit down, let us eat, " Dilan said 

Dilan is my 4 months boyfriend and I'm proud of having him, he's not just sweet and caring but he is loyal and huggable, lovable 

"Joash Dee, what are you thinking again there," He said while pointing me using his spoon

" None..none lets eat" I shook my head and started putting food on my mouth

I am Joash Dee and I work as a Radio DJ, I have my own segment on the radio where I talked to callers and give them pieces of advice, about love, life friendship and all I'm not bragging myself but I am famous there haha

Dilan Is my co-worker he works as the sound technician, he fixes the chords, the right sounds, music for every episode that I'm doing.

"Faster we might get late on duty," Dilan said

I didn't notice that I was drowned on my thoughts, after eating I went back to our room to change clothes

Today is a new day for us.

" Good morning" the guard greeted us

" Morning too brother," I said 

As I arrived my booth, I immediately sat down and test my tools and equipment, after making sure that I'm all set, I give a thumbs-up sign to my team as a sign to start the radio rolling

Ringing

Here's our first caller

" Hi, good morning caller may I know your name?" I said happily 

I heard that the caller cleared her throat before speaking 

"Hi. DJ Dee my name is Larissa and I want to ask for your advice" she started 

" yes dear what's that," I said 

" here. uhhmm how do I start this.. " she said 

" You can start from the top dear.. breath in and breath out so that you can compose yourself " I advised her

" well. DJ .. it all started when we are just high school student we are just 18 years old back then, but that time I know myself that I loved him and so he does" she started

"And?"

" We stayed for almost 4 years when we knew that he has cancer, leukaemia stage 4 cancer"

We all stayed quite listening to the caller. She started crying too

" I loved him.. he told me to forget each other, he said that I am still young, I can still find someone better than him, which I know myself I can never do and I won't do it, I stayed on his side, every day, every night until last week, the last week we had, the last time I saw his smile, the last time he held my hands, the last time we exchanged I love you to each other, he left me already, he joined God above already, how am I going to move on, how am going to forget the one I love? Can you give me pieces of advice?" She begged

I know how hurt she is right now, I know the feeling of being left behind, I know it hurts so bad that you ever wanted to end your own life

" Larissa? Take this in mind, everyone deserves happiness including you, you deserve to be happy, cry it all out now, cry all those pains today but make sure that tomorrow you will stand tall and high, yes, he left you but that doesn't mean that you will be left alone right? You still have your friends, families to help you stand again, and there, we have God to pray and ask for strength, remember that you will be hurt today but you will go through this tomorrow, it will take a month a year to move on but it's fine, as long as you know yourself that you are happy it is fine, right now you are pierced with millions or even billions of needles and no one will help you remove it except yourself, remove it one at a time and I assure you that after you remove all needles you will feel that the burden inside you slowly fades away. God loves you, your friends and family love you. Take their hands with you. " 

" Thank you, Dee," she said while sobbing 

" Okay Larissa take this moment and say everything that you wanted to say to your boyfriend," I said 

" Hi Ben, baby, thank you, thank you for staying at my side for 4 years, I love you, I know you are happy now, I know you are in a good place, the memories we had will always be inside my heart, we will see each other soon" 

" Now Larissa breath in and breath out, pray and let God help you through it okay," I said 

" Thank you, Dee, thank you for helping me. I'll end now this call" she said and ended the call.

Dilan played a sad song that caused me to have teary eyes 

" Hey, are you okay?" He said and sat next to me 

" yes I am fine, I was just carried away by the caller, I feel so sad for her, you baby what will you do if I died instantly?" I suddenly asked him

" Me.. hmmm I don't know, and I'm sure that won't happen right," he said and pinched my cheek 

" And what if I die instantly what will you do?" He suddenly throws the question back to 

" Me?"

What will I do if he dies instantly? Will I cry? Will I end my life too? 

" Hey don't be too serious I was just joking," he said and shuffled my hair.

"Tch," I said and glared at him 

But really what will I do if he left me instantly?

No.. no. Erase .. erase. I shook my head and closed my eyes.. what the hell am I thinking about.

I guess when that time comes I will accept it wholeheartedly, with a smile on my face.