[6] Unbridled Tide Of Wishes

◔ Ryan ◔

I was literally so angry with her.

What might have happened if Amanda didn't inform me on time?!

I don't like Amanda personally but this habit of her always helped me to track down whenever Maze was in trouble. I should treat her with a nice dinner sometimes, though her motive wasn't innocent at all, yet it did assist me out.

I just wanted to break those hands around his waist. But She would be angrier if I do that. I wanted to be mad with her but she was already upset so I didn't want to exaggerate things and let it go with a nice dinner treat. She loves to eat more whenever she is disturbed by anything. Gosh, she can eat non-stop. So the dinner plan was really a good move by me to calm the situation.

She is beautiful to ignore for anyone yet was never arrogant over her beauty. She never likes to display her charm wearing short body-hugging dresses. She just has one flaw and that was she is way too short-tempered and strong-head. In times she can really be over adamant that piss me off yet I can't stay angry on her for long. What to do she is such types of person on whom none can stay mad for long. And the rate of her unintentionally destroying anything was just hectic. And the bizarre item she cooks or I should say she invent can really kill people.

Even after all this imperfection, to me, she was perfect in every aspect.

While thinking about all these silly things actually about my past daring experiences, we reached her home soon.

I got out of the driving seat. Moving to her side, I unfastened her seat belt, picked her in a bridal style, and moved towards her house. But I had to stop and stood in front of her door as I was busy thinking about how to unlock the door when my both hand were busy holding her. So, I decided to wake her up.

"Maze !!  Wake up...Maze" I tried to shook her body in my lap.

She slowly woke up by waving her long lashes. It was made my heart start beating faster than ever. My breath hitched in my throat as I couldn't stand it longer.

She rubbed her eyes trying to remove the sleepiness from them. The moment her beautiful dark brown eyes met mine, her eyes snapped open.

She flushed red with shame and anger by seeing her in my lap.

I love her flushed red face. I know she forbade me thousands of times to take her in my lap.

But what can I do, I just can't stop myself from touching her.

I know for her, I am just a friend But for me, she was more than that.

I prepared myself for her outburst.

She creased her brows darkening her face, "Why do you just keep doing this? Don't ever come to show me your face"

With that, she wiggled out of my lap and hurriedly moved inside unlocking her door.

But the silly girl left the key in her door-lock out of anger. I took the key and shove it in my pocket as I was gonna need this perhaps a bit later.

I apologized to her again and again, finally, she let me in.

I know she can't stay angry with anyone for long. It kept bothering her from inside until she fixed her reason for irritation.

"Don't be happy. I haven't forgiven you for what you just did" She said mocking me.

It doesn't matter as I know she will cool down soon.

If I hadn't known her better then I would think that she really wanted me to leave. But I know her thoroughly from inside out. She could only lash her anger on me.

I am happy to possess that part in her life.

We watched Harry Potter together. She loves it especially the character Harry. A few years back she even used potter like round glasses out of her fancy over Harry Potter.

At that time she really looked like a dumb nerd, but I always had to lie saying "She is looking beautiful" As I didn't want to die at this age.

She is the whimsical character that can't stay steady not even for a moment.

Slowly she fell asleep while watching the Tv.

I couldn't restrain myself from placing a soft kiss on her forehead.

I wanted to kiss those pink plumpy lips but it'll make her aware of my actions.

So I just keep repress myself from doing anything stupid like this. I wish she could understand my feelings without even expressing them.

I just don't wanna lose my only family stating my stupid feelings to her. And I know she would never love me back the way I do.

But this wasn't the only reason I was keeping her away from mine. Would she love me back if she knew who I was for real?! Would she accept me and my reality? Would she be angry with me for hiding my truth from her? Would she forgive me?

Should I tell her? Or should I keep her in dark?

This wild thoughts of mine drove me crazy sometimes, but I do control myself every time just because of her. I don't want to force her to share the same black shadow that I do.

But only if I can I would have shown her what was she for me !!

Life was too unfair, why can't I proceed her with my feelings even after loving her more than anything in this world.

A cringing pain took over my soul making me hard to breathe.

I let out a deep sigh allowing my body muscles to relax a bit and trap my useless thoughts in a deep dark room letting it rot there.

I wish I could be jealous over her, brake someone's hand or face for touching her, hold her in my arm, caress her hair, kiss her forehead with legit rights.

I wish...." Stop Ryan !! Stop right here. Don't even think of beginning something that you can't take responsibility of. It's better than not to do anything rather than leaving it in halfway" The voice inside my head dragged me out of my "Long list of wishes" and dump me with a hard slap of reality on my face.

I am happy at least my wishes know where should it stop.

I moved far away from her as I don't know whether I can control my unbridled tide of wishes if I stay this close to her. Something is better to be cherished from afar than touching or stepping close to it.