Chapter 1 (Dream)

"Are you excited for our graduation?" my classmate asked. 

"It's sad and exciting isn't it? Because we might not meet in college life and then be excited to be a college student."

"I heard Saymon is Valedictorian! Seriously! He's handsome and smart!"

"It would be okay if HIS is large too for the total package!"

I just stared at the air and smiled as I listened to my classmates talk.

We've only been graduating for two months. I do not know if I will enjoy or get bored? If it's summer, we always go on vacation in our province and as usual, mama and my older brother  Santi will leave me again.

I also dream of becoming a model someday. So I love everything when it comes to decorations and fashions.

"Will your older brother pick you up later?" Tina asked me.

She was the one who had a crush on brother Santi. She is not the only one of them. Kuya is in his third year of college so every time he picks me up, they ask me.

"Yes .."

They all shuddered at my answer.

A few minutes later my cellphone rang. I read my brother's text that he was outside.

"I'll go ahead. My older brother is already outside."

We are not rich. My dad has vans. We have seven licensed vans. Many tourists rented it. Our mother Mama Mona is an elementary teacher. Kuya Santi took a part time job at a Bistro to supplement his expenses as a college student. Me, just following my parents' command .

Outside our school I can see my older brother's pick up. I gasped because there were more giggling women with a crush on him.

The pick up window is not tinted so I can see him looking at his cellphone seriously.

Just the first time I stepped on the floor of the car the pick up sounded because it was rusty.

It's good that my brother is not an artistic person.

It just looked at me and started the car. We're not close. He has always been a serious person. even I, intimidated to approach or ask him.

" Is mom at home?"

"Not at home yet."

That's all I always ask him and he always answers me.And now we're at home. 

He's wearing jersey obviously just from basketball.It's late and mama and papa still not here. I already cooked dinner. 

"Brother, my graduation is near..what is your gift to me?"

He looked at me. His stare gave me shivered.

He clicked his tongue. I saw his tongue with earrings.

"Next time .. Anna's birthday at your graduation."

I nodded.

"I'm leaving, I have a gig at the bistro. Lock the doors, obviously?"

"Yes brother."

He stood up and went up to his room next to my room. I looked down at the table. He left his cellphone behind. 

I was wondering if I should take it? Or will I look first? Of course the second one prevailed.

I nervously took it and tadaaa! No password. But his wallpaper made him topless in the sea.

Now I really understand why so many like at him.

I think my fingers have their own mind and the gallery precedes it, and I saw the first video!

Suddenly his cellphone moaned loudly! It fell to the floor but of course I saw it all.

My older brother ... my older brother is on top of the woman. I've watched porn but can I see my older brother's porn?

I sweat so much .. Seriously!

"Ara!"

An angry voice made me even more nervous. My older brother picked up his cellphone with a crack.

My older brother is no longer a virgin.

"What did you see?" It asked in an angry voice. 

I swallowed and cried. He is very angry with me.

"What's the answer!"

"I-You brother..and the woman. You two are having sex .."

He closed its eyes tightly and squeezed the senses.

"Next time do not interfere.Tsss."

Suddenly I woke up from lying because of lightning and thunder again. It was early in the morning and it was raining heavily outside.

I was afraid of lightning especially thunder.

I quickly got up and left the room. I tried to open their room mama and papa but it's locked.Maybe my older brother won't be angry, moreover, maybe he is not there yet.

The thunder stopped again so I accelerated. My older brother's room door did not lock so I almost jumped on his bed and covered myself with a blanket.

I pulled the big pillow and hugged it. I feel safer when my mom or brother is in their room. I get more nervous in my room when it rains hard.

Is this a good dream? I see captain america. He hugged me.I smiled sweetly at him. Shit! he's handsome. This is a nice dream.I was supposed to be in bed and he ran over me. I was shocked that we were already kissing.

The softness of his lips made me crazy. My first kiss Captain America was great! And this dream is completely fulfilled.

He rubbed my thigh and I kissed him back.He howled nd his kiss dropped to my chest.

It allegedly made my chest sick. I suddenly urinated. 

The sunshine is high when I wake up. I just got up when I saw my older brother's back.

He fixes his guitar. He suddenly faced the feeling of me getting up.His forehead furrowed .

Good morning b-brother "

"Morning .."

I just scratched my hair.

"I'm sorry I slept here because of the rain last night."

"No problem, it looks like you were dreaming last night,"

I blushed profusely .

Huh? "

He shooked his head and grin.

"Next time you will sleep here please wear a diaper. You look like a child, you really pee."

My eyes widened in shame!

Holy cow!

"Ara is a girl urinating,'' he teased me.

I woke up well in the afternoon. Last night I did my assignments. When you graduate, you will be filled with requirements and assignments.

I rolled my eyes as I went down. I caught up with mom in the kitchen. I turned my gaze to Anna. She smiled at me immediately.

“Hello ate Anna! "I greeted her and kissed her on the cheek. She's beautiful, she fits my older brother. Even if he is a bad boy, and her Anna looks like a fairy, they are still two even if my older brother is cold she doesn't care.

"Ara, you will take care of Anna here ?I have a lot of works for students. "

"Yes mom. Where'sbrother? "

"He's still at school and on his way home because he still has a gig tonight .."

Mama left. Anna is still the same, gentle and quiet.

I woke up well in the afternoon. Last night I did my assignments. When you graduate, you will be filled with requirements and assignments.

I rolled my eyes as I went down. I caught up with mom in the kitchen. I turned my gaze to Anna. She smiled at me immediately.

“Hello ate Anna! "I greeted her and kissed her on the cheek. She's beautiful, she fits my older brother. Even if he is a bad boy, and her Anna looks like a fairy, they are still two even if my older brother is cold she doesn't care.

"Ara, you will take care of Anna here ?I have a lot of works for students. "

"Yes mom. Where'sbrother? "

"He's still at school and on his way home because he still has a gig tonight .."

Mama left. Anna is still the same, gentle and quiet.

"Anna, how are you? You haven't been visited in a long time."

She sniffed and smiled. "We went to the States, didn't we?"

"Oh, why? Aren't you studying here?"

Suddenly her face saddened.

"There's just something important because mommy and I went there. Besides, maybe I can't go to school anymore."

"Huh? Why?"

She smiled and pinched my nose.

"You ha, your chatter."

"Ugh,Anna not my nose!"

"What? Your nose is great!! You look like your older brother .The tip of the nose... beautiful and handsome genes!"

Our story was fun all afternoon.

We are now in brother Santi's pick up. I was in the backseat while they were ahead. I was just looking at the trees we passed.

"Why did you bring me?" I heard my sister Anna ask.

"Just ..." My older brother answered shortly.

I turned to the front and saw my older brother looking at me using the rearview mirror.

I immediately avoided and pretended to sing.

Boring at home, I can't talk to anyone there. So I went with my brother and Anna .

Many people when we arrived at the Bistro. There are already drinks and there are foods.

Kuya made us sit at the table where his friends were.

They fistbumped and the rest of us looked at  Anna and me. 

Like Santi they are playboys and also have faces. Theysmiled and winked at me as I just nodded. I once met them.

"Here you are Ara .." Julio patted the side of it.

"Not my sister Julio." the others laughed and Julio scratched his head.

"Bros before hoes guys!" William said ..

My older brother pulled us out of the chair and ordered something for our juice and food. He whispered to his sister Anna and kissed her on the forehead and left for the stage. 

I suddenly remembered my brother's video. Sister Anna is not that woman. I don't want to interfere in their relationship.

We looked at the mini stage where they were standing brother. The women shouted.

"You're so hot Santi!!”

"Santi I don't have panties anymore!" I heard someone shouted and I was stunned.

"Anna , how many have a crush on kuya?" O asked her. Is it okay for her? She's the girlfriend!

Anna just smiled. "I'm used to it. Let it go .."

"Not sure of you know this, But when we first met, I've got so nervous, I could'nt speak."

My heart pounded when I heard its voice. The coolness of his voice was as cold as his expression on stage. He did not know those who shouted his name.

I looked into my brother's eyes and saw that he's looking  Anna.Anna blushed. Despite the redness of her eyes, her lips were pale.

"In that very moment,

I found the one and,

My life had found my missing piece."

I was horrified when my older brother closed his eyes while strumming his guitar. His voice is beautiful.

So as long as I live I love you,

Will heaven hold you,

You look so beautiful in white,

I turned to Anna as she cried.

I held her hand and found out she was getting cold.

"Are you okay Anna?" I asked in surprise.

She nodded.

"Y-Yes"

I was not convinced because I could feel her coldness but I just let her go especially when she took her cellphone and videotaped my  brother.

"Collection?"

She shook and smiled bitterly.

"I just want to collect all his songs. I watch them every day. I want him to have remembrance of me ...."

''And from now till my very last breath,

This day I'll cherish, You look so beautiful in white, Tonight ..."

I looked at my older brother and found out that I had his gaze but  I avoided immediately. I can no longer take my eyes off him. His voice is addictive. He just played the guitar freshly while singing and was very good at it.

"What we have is timeless, My love is endless, And with this ring I say to the world,"

"You're my every reason, You're all that i believe in, With all my heart I mean every word,"

"So as long as I live I love you, Will heaven hold you, You look so beautiful in white, tonight ...."

I stood up immediately before the songs ended. I don't know whymy chest felt tight when my older brother came down from the stage and went to Anna. It looks like a surprise.

I entered a cubicle inside the comfort room and was stunned. I do not know what to think. I feel like I'm emoting now .

When I came out of CR, I could see Santi and sister Anna. They go to the back of this bar where there are fountains and fairy lights.

I followed them slowly. I saw them talking.Santi just smirked while Anna was crying.

Why is she crying?

"Why did not you say?" My brother's voice was cold.

I do not know what happened earlier.

"I-I don't want to hurt you..I don't know how can I say .."

I saw my older brother look up and his jaw tightened.

"When is this Anna?"

I was a little scared of my older brother's voice, I know my sister Anna feels the same way.

"Last y-year Santi.please, forgive me I did not immediately say .. "

She cries . Suddenly Santi hugged her tightly.

"Why ... Anna ... why."

"I want to be with you S-Santi. I want us to get married b-before I disappear .."

My heart tore at what I heard. I'm hurting.