chapter 8

"The beautiful thing about fear is, when you run towards it. It runs away"

My eyes felt like they were being stabbed because of the ferocity with which I was closing them. I felt the knife glide over a small part of my skin and the feel of blood dripping scared me. Suddenly the pressure of the knife against my neck increased and I gasped . Prayers flew from my lips at a rapid speed. It felt like a very realistic nightmare. The guy holding the knife laughed at my shaking self . I was disgusted by his behaviour. I prayed to God to perform a miracle .

God did seemed to have heard my prayer as I heard footsteps . The knife's froce suddenly disappeared. I opened my eyes to see a person approaching . I could barely make out a figure with its eyes down. The guy who would have been my murderer if not for the stranger approaching, walked away hurriedly and disappeared into the darkness .

I came out of my shock . That's when the reality of what just happened hit me with its full force. I would have died if it was not for the stranger approaching the park. I looked around to see the person I saw before, But not a soul was seen around . I thanked God for a good 2 minutes . I wanted to scream as well as jump out of joy. I would have died but I didn't.

In my moment of happiness I totally forgot that no one was around . Not wanting to experience the last minutes again I ran out of the park . It was dark all around and every whisper or crunch of a leaf made me look around with my heart beating frantically. After minutes which felt like ages of walking back, I reached my house . Loudly announcing that I was home , I quickly went to my bedroom and locked the door.

Running towards the mirror I observe the skin on my neck to make sure that there wasn't any major wound that would make me bleed to death. There was a small cut on the right side of my neck, it wasn't bleeding but it was slightly red. I went to the bathroom and cleaned it with some antiseptic to prevent any infection. after having a quick shower I went down and told my mum that I didn't want dinner and that I was sleeping . I didn't feel like eating anything . The fear had taken up most of my mind to worry about food.

I sprawled myself on the bed and stared at the ceiling. I started replaying the things that occurred a few hours ago. Thinking about it only brought me chills . Such a beautiful being but with a heart so cruel. Suddenly I realised that when the guy had held the knife against me, there was a flicker of regret in his beautiful eyes. My heart told me that he might have been forced to do it , but the logical part of my brain didn't agree to it, saying that if he really regretted it he wouldn't have kept it going on for so long . He would have just scared me for a few seconds and then let go of me. And also no one was around him, so his actions were purely horrific and cold hearted.

Telling myself that there's no point in thinking about it again, but that I should be thankful that I'm still alive. I should be more careful from now on and shouldn't let my curious self win.  I let sleep consume me , finally letting my limbs rest .

I was running into complete blackness, suddenly I was falling and before I could realise what's happening i felt my skin stinging and blood gushing out, like some imaginary knife was cutting through me. And suddenly there were cries all around me and fire enveloping me from every side . I woke up all of a sudden . It was a nightmare, I breathed a sigh of relief. Looks like the news and the recent incident messed up my brain pretty bad. I couldn't go to sleep now, so to spend time I go to the terrace and started reading. I wrapped myself with blankets and under the moonlight I spent my night.

The next morning I was aching all over .  When I woke up on the terrace, my whole body felt like ice . I never knew when I fell asleep , reading on the terrace was a really bad idea. Due to my aching limbs I was snappier than ever.  I entered school with a frown on my face . I had already snapped at 3 kids for speaking loudly. School went by slow like a snail . Scar hadn't come today and i was all alone and that made the day even more worse .

I was happy that winter vacations would start from tomorrow . But the stupid teachers are so jealous, selfish and totally monstrous that they couldn't see us happy .  They gave us the worst and inhumane punishment ever - homework and lots of it . You might think that I m over exaggerating but let me tell you they would be your exact thoughts if you had to study for an exam as well submit stupid projects and added to that stupid homework, and you are given only a 20 days as a holiday.

I went home and started packing .  We were going to Milo early in the morning at 5. We were going there by car and it was around 24 hour journey and we were stopping for the night at a motel. Scar was already away with her family for the vacations. After finishing my packing, I checked everything once more , I am always worried whether i have everything or not when i am going somewhere.  After asking my mum and sis whether they had everything, I went to my room and called it a night .

I had to wake up early tomorrow and I had to make sure I have extra warm clothes.  It was gonna be pretty cold tomorrow.  I couldn't help but think about what happened yesterday, I had to tell someone what happened.  I could surely not tell Scar about the guy when she was away . She would totally freak out and before I know  the whole thing would be blown out of proportion.  I could only tell her when she was with me, So I could keep her from screaming and freaking out .

I rid myself of the negative thoughts and focus on my vacation starting tomorrow.  I was beyond excited and I couldn't wait to go to Milo.